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20150205年前近期

老實說這禮拜幾乎沒去學校
只去了禮拜一吧
不過去了跟沒去其實差不多
都是沒事找事做然後腦袋空空讓一天過去

自己其實知道這樣很不好
離放假沒幾天了身上有很多論文相關工作
老師交代的、助理幫忙的、到頭來就剩下自己的部分了
要是再這樣下去想在暑假前畢業還真的是妄想
但打開xshell要處理一下資料又發現一直專注不下去

這幾天偶爾失眠然後等到進入夢鄉再起床就快中午了
不過起來也是恍神恍神的一直不在狀態上
這跟上週會想跟朋友一直聊天又是不一樣的心境
也不知道怎麼說,
總之就是這樣了,也不知道說什麼,但時不時一些話語還是會趁隙跑出來打劫

其實我滿羨慕那種能夠想做什麼就放手去做什麼的性格
要是那樣的話應該可以工作的時間盡情工作、其餘的時間就盡情去想想心事的吧
可惜從小就被教育得要看人臉色要考慮再三到頭來才發現自己常常被自己給束縛住
很少真正地活出自己 很少用心地感受喜怒哀樂
這樣真的很病態很壓抑阿
等到習慣了發現了才看到自己有一些情感障礙
不過我們家就是這樣子的

這兩天跟我媽講比較多話我媽又開始講一些這類家庭問題
意外發現我媽常常過得不開心我姊也跟我一樣常常在家就覺得壓力大想往外跑
(不過我宅了一點只要關上房門我的空間不被打擾我就覺得隨便了)
於是我越來越不解,
家庭氣氛變成這樣也不是我造成的
每次我媽跑來念我我都覺得很無言
不過這話題一被提起總是很頭大
問我到底問題出在哪裡我也說不出個所以然來
於是我現在是煩上加煩了
接著就開始後悔去找我媽聊天了…

總之經過了這樣子的事也好
至少我現在覺得感性的事多了一點、又接近人類多一點了

Momentous

Nanda Parbat

High in the Himalayas

It stands on a mountain side

Hidden in the Hindu Cush,

The home of R’as al Ghul

Head and leader of the League of Assassins. 244 more words

Being

The Old Hag


Has anyone else had that awful sensation, whilst in a deep sleep I feel this terror & wake up feeling pinned to the bed. I am unable to move & feel like if I scream it ll be ok but no sounds will come out. 66 more words

Dear Keurig

You are so convenient. I can get what I want immediately. Power. Poke. Press. Presto!

I have my solo cup of java and toss the evidence. 145 more words

Body

Dress Causing People to Go Mad

Today there has been a dress that has been circulating social media. Why? Because it seems no one truly knows the color of the dress. Many claim to see white and gold, while others see black and blue. 80 more words

Kum Nye can sense ripples of experiences

Our experiences are not unlike the various manifestations of water.
Snow, ice, rain, waves, and streams are all expressions of water.

Similarly, thoughts, sensations and emotional states can all be understood as expressions of a basic, fundamental openness.

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Composer David Smith releases dance single 'Sensation'

The composer and producer of digital dance music known as David Smith has released his debut single, “Sensation.” The track represents Smith’s electronica masterpiece for the start of the 2015 year and showcases him as one of Europe’s most promising up-and-coming digital musicians by a long stretch. 508 more words