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His Father's Secret Journal

In 1990, when I was first becoming obsessed with the curious art of magic, I asked an agent her opinion about who was the best kids’ magician in Los Angeles.  2,472 more words

People In My Life

Same Old Dance

Hand around the hip left hands clutching

eyes piercing

two step forward, one back

heads turning facing away

dip in submission

raising voices, children crying… 37 more words


Time Conundrum

This past week I’ve been in a haze. My time was spent on video games and reading borderline blogs/forums. I’ve felt lethargic for weeks, both with and without the pot. 309 more words


Splitting and devaluing wreaks havoc

For days thoughts of ending the relationship wore heavy on my mind. The boredom has built. I can no longer get blitzed out of my mind and sit on video games, while he does the same. 949 more words


Some childhood emotions I wish I could forget

I’ve been sitting here thinking about suicide. Death, and dying, and my lack of control over my emotions that take over my every sense. But I’m also recalling when I was a teenager feeling this… ideation, obsession settle into my brain. 400 more words


Cut It Out

The temptation to mutilate is something that I’ve learned to suppress, until a negative emotion is so overwhelming that I can’t tolerate it. Sometimes I need to cut myself to keep certain emotions contained. 588 more words


Dysfunction affects all aspects of (my) life...

I can’t function properly. Much of the time I can get away with pretending. The emotional instability repressed by a fake reactions or indifference. I’ve come to realize that even when I feel “fine” I’m still not functioning like a normal twenty-four year old. 1,215 more words