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Hard work, good work.

I have therapy today and never even posted about my EMDR session last week.

I focused on the wordless panic I’d felt when trying to explain to my partner… 248 more words

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Meds and dreams and generally torturing myself

Ugh.  So I was sitting here at work simultaneously overheating and freezing (sweat lining my skin but I’m totally frozen to the touch) and being generally uncomfortable and I started wondering what the heck was going on when….suddenly…ohhh.  894 more words

Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Somes it's no fun being me

Some of what I don’t want to post:

I’m worried.  I’ve thought, for moments in the recent past, that I’m the one who is wrong here.  1,063 more words

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Forced words

*For crying out loud Grainne, this is a blog, not a massive online journal of draft posts that never see the little publish button clicked.* 980 more words

Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Dreams of others who protect what I cannot

In dreams last night I was trying to find a safe place to hide.  Somewhere small and well concealed so I could *just* pull my arms and legs in after my body and be completely hidden, albeit squashed into some tiny spot.  878 more words

Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Someone other than me

Did you notice that you did not find me?  I’m not sure you did.  I think you drew a picture of what you thought I should be in your mind, and then tried to jam me into the shape without care or concern as to what you were squeezing out of me in the process.  536 more words

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Life and stuff

I worked my little tail off yesterday and plowed through a ton of work which made both bosses happier, at least for now.  I also got the equipment out of my office and can drink tea in my office again.  1,184 more words

Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder