bkatetaylor73
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I grew up as the daughter of a mother with Borderline Personality Disorder (“BPD”) and probably Narcissistic Personality Disorder (“NPD”)as well. Because of the psychological damage inflicted by my mother, my life has been subconsciously controlled.
My whole life, I have been completely surrounded by NPD’s and BPD’s.
Just about everyone of my boyfriends has had NPD and I chose to work within the legal field, as a paralegal, for the first 20 years of my adult life, which as it happens, is a profession that attracts a large number of NPD’s.
Just to top it off almost all of my closest friends has either NPD or BPD.
As a result my life was a mess. I was being degraded, used and abused psychologically from every angle. As a result, I have suffered low grade depression, and anxiety for most of my life. I have also had 2 major breakdowns, and considered suicide on many occasions. Once: seriously.
Ironically, it was the moment when I was most serious about ending my life that set me on a path that has ultimately changed my perspective about what it is to be a victim of NPD and BPD and how to rid myself of the physiological demons once and for all.
It has been a long painful journey for me, and finally, I am feeling free and happy and content.
Many people have started asking me how I did it and suggested I start sharing my story with others so that they too can find some hope and maybe see the light at the end of the tunnel and in our last conversation, my long term psychologist made a request of me late in 2012 that I take what I have learned and help others. Unfortunately, she died suddenly of pneumonia 3 weeks later.
So, in honour of Susan H. Cameron, I have set up this blog and my sincere hope is that others will also find ways to heal through my story. I promise not to be stingy with my sharing no matter how raw the topic.