ME!

I have been feeling down lately since I haven't been getting in my workout like I want, I have been eating too many carbs, and drinking too much alcohol.  It DOES make a huge difference to a body when the diet and exercise regime is changed so suddenly. So rapidly.

That is it.  I don't care if YOU  feel YOU need carbs.  That YOU need to eat a certain way.  YOU don't like Taebo.  ROBIN likes it.  Low carb WORKS for ROBIN.  I am spiralling back into being lethargic and cranky.  I am bloated.  I am still in the clothes that I bought, but I don't feel the same I did before the end of the deployment.  Other folks can do what the hell they want.  EAT EVERY CARB you can lay your hands on...drink every beer...go do your thing.  I no longer have the patience to wait or to figure out what to do to adjust to another person.  I am hoping that being selfish and doing ME other people around me will realize that what I am doing works and it isn't a fad.

Sigh...

I had to rant this out.  I haven't been writing because I have been a lazy bum...I have been depressed...and really what could I say?  Time to DO ME again.  I woke up this morning feeling every part of being 38.  Aches everywhere, exhausted, and freaking depressed.  My husband suggested that I get out of bed and get in a quick 30 minute workout.  Fuck me!  30 minutes will not help me right now.  I did get in a workout...but I KNOW what to do.  Please do not suggest to me what I should do...especially if you do things completely opposite from me.  Seriously.

I am looking at adding the Melt it Off program to my little arsenal of fitness DVDs.  It looks interesting enough and like cookbooks my new thing is to collect workouts. 

My workout today was Turbo Charged Fat Burner

This evening will be an ab workout.  I will have the Girl make dinner tonight.  I am sure she will help out especially if she wants to eat.

My rant/dump is over...will be back later.  I need to research the Melt it Off Program... 

He is looking to get out of the place he working at now.  It means another school...12 weeks...and a desk job.  I have to say that it would be nice to have one of those soldiers that doesn't go anywhere.  Five deployments is just a bit much for me and the kids.  So...if he gets the school then he will NOT be going away again in 12 months.  It is already planned for his unit to go back...so I am crossing my fingers and toes plus chanting to make sure this all goes through.

I am still converting people over to the Taebo/Low Carb way of life.  My husband has lost 8 pounds so far eating what I eat.  I am working on getting him to do a Taebo workout with me.  I ran into my husband's CO and his wife last night.  The CO (he lacks a filter...seriously folks) tells me "WOW...you are so skinny since the last time I have seen you!  You look great...I wouldn't have recognized you at all!  I mean you were SO MUCH BIGGER last time I saw you!"  Just blah, blah, blah while his wife is just GLARING at me.   I finally just said I did Taebo and Atkins.  He looks at his wife...and I look down.  The look on his face was..."See!  She had 15 months and she did something!" Jebus! That was uncomfortable...the woman didn't say two words to me...but if she could have erased me from the Earth I am sure she would have.  I wanted to tell her I was her last year.  Angry...miserable...and wanting to kill any skinny bitch that I came across.  I understand...I really do.  I just cannot get used to being that "skinny bitch" I used to hate so much so the reactions are upsetting.  I am getting that response from a bunch of the wives.  I did keep to myself this deployment with work, the kids, and my program.  But why the hostility??  I just want to wear a sign that says I DID THIS FOR ME...not to take your man.  :)   I am definitely giving credit to Billy and Dr. Atkins anytime I can...I want to see everyone succeed and feel like I do.  Taebo empowers you...and Atkins keeps you full.  How wonderful of a feeling is that??  My Daddy and my Momma are doing Taebo...woohoo!  Hopefully if (and that is a BIG IF) we go to New Orleans to see my husband's family I can convert my sister in laws.

I have been playing a little hooky from work (I have sick leave and I am using some of it) so I am back on track with the exercise and eating.  There is a possible Holiday Ball coming up and the possible trip to see the In-Laws so I want to look my best.  I always do well when I have a goal in mind.  I tend to get really good with my eating when I know I want to look my best for a function.  I actually have a dress in mind...so it will be dates with Billy until then.

I am going to steal some pictures from Kellie and Lou from our trip to Phoenix.  My camera wasn't acting right so I don't have any...bummer!

I have a date to keep with Billy so I will be back after that....I think I will follow the schedule he has on his website. I also have to grab my brother and get him moving with me again.  Just because my husband is home doesn't mean Team Wondertwin is gone...we will just be bigger.  Kellie is already part of the team...it makes sense to add Jorge.  It will be a husband and wife thing...

I missed everyone...it is good to be back!

I am driving around in a rental car since my car has a defective rear door.  The back door cannot be opened from the either the indie or the outside.  They must be having a hard time fixing the door because I dropped off the car on Saturday and they still have the vehicle.  I haven't heard a word from those people at all.  The rental is a 2008 Saturn Vue...I love the car, but I really want MY car back.  I hope they don't think I have fallen in love with this model and want to do a trade in...because I don't want to do that.  I am so over the newness of the 2008 version.  I am like that with cars...I am like OH WOW for a few days and after that I am over it all.  I am wondering what they will do if they cannot fix the car...I definitely cannot drive a vehicle with a defective passenger door.  Something has to be done...I will give them until Friday then I will call them.  I will update the results (or lack of results) then.  I am of this mindset...I will just drive around in this rental until they do something.  It is a major safety issue for me and I will not accept the car back unfixed.

I was thinking about calling out sick tomorrow...but I know I NEED to go to work.  It is so close to the troops coming back and I have a ton of things to do before then.  I was offended by a comment that was made by someone who I was working with...he pretty much talked about me behind my back.  I thought he was happy with what I was doing and then he turned around and told the other woman that I work with that he had no idea WHY I was emailing him and calling him (I wanted to call him and tell him that he requested that I call him..what a jackass!  I didn't...I was mad but I will remain professional no matter how much it bothers me!).  He referred to me as "THAT WOMAN".  Well...this guy also made the same comment about my co-worker (I didn't tell my co-worker what he said about her so I am puzzled as to why she told me this...anyone would be offended by such a thing...I was literally thrown into this)...so who does he want to work with??  I just have to realize that these types of things happen...people will do or say whatever they need to get what they want.  All the work that I did...well she is getting credit for it all.  It stings...but I am grown and this is the first time that I have dealt with this type of assignment so she can take it.  I will get paid regardless.  You just wouldn't think people are that two faced these days.  Sigh... I guess this is what working for the Army is all about.

My house is rearranged and actually decorated.  It looks so much better now...and it is comfortable.  The only thing I have left to do is to clean my room.  I let the teens know that I want the house to STAY this way...I am not sitting here with a clenched jaw because everything is in order.  I hope to have everything in order by Friday (they changed my day off at work and now I have this Friday off instead of next Friday...THAT is a whole other story) so I can show Mom and Dad the house.  After that I would like to take them to the Desert Diamond Casino.  I haven't been gambling since I left New Orleans so it should be fun.  If we don't make the casino...I guess me and Lou will do a workout instead.  I haven't done any formal exercise all week...but moving everything around was a workout in itself.  I am not bummed at all.  I will get back in the swing of things by this weekend...guaranteed.  I haven't worked this hard to get to where I am to get lazy NOW.   Too much time and sweat was invested in all of this and I plan on staying this way.  Lou lost about 15 pounds just by working out.  Since Mom and Dad are here (Momma is borderline diabetic and my Daddy has Type 2 diabetes) I will be on track with the diet for the entire time.  Momma wants to know how I eat...and that is motivation enough to stay away from all the bad foods.

Be on the lookout for lots of pictures...I will be taking a ton of them.  I am beat so I am off to take a shower and prepare for tomorrow...

Later!

Did Taebo Elite Upper Body and Taebo Amped Rockin Abs.  My brother and I had a great time...even had a moment when we both were giggling our butts off.  I have discovered that being silly isn't just something that I do...my brother is just as silly.  I got weak a couple of times...Kellie was no help because she helped make us even more silly.  I can't wait to workout again with Lou.  We will both be feeling these workouts tomorrow.

I made some garlic buffalo wings yesterday so I had that to eat with a big salad.  My daughter made a wonderful meat sauce so I had some of that as well.  My eating is on track and I know I will complete the challenge.  It feels good to not be sick and feel cruddy.  It is about time.   The rest that I got really helped...I guess my body was upset because I wasn't listening to it.  I know better the next time.

I am tired...just checking in to keep myself on track.

Later!

I decided to take a day off of work today to get many many things done.  I FINALLY got my daughter enrolled in school.  Lucky for me I did decide to take time off because there was no way that I could have done all of this on my lunch hour.  It is almost time for school to start again and like any tired parent...I can't wait!!  It doesn't matter how old your children are...there is a point when all you want is for them to be back in school.  I am so ready for that.  They have relaxed long enough! 

I was even able to get two work orders for the house done...now I have three more to get done.  I actually crossed off things to do on my list.  That is a first.  Really considering getting on a alternate work schedule just so I can have a day off during the week.  It makes a difference to have a day to take care of pressing things like broken toilets, school registration, laundry that is piling up, and getting a little extra sleep.  Mmmm...sleep!  Something I will be able to do once my husband is back home to help me with various chores and appointments. 

I have a couple of things to do before bed...just logging in a workout and a perfectly clean low carb day.  This is getting easier and easier to do.  I guess I finally picked up a habit that is actually good for me! 

Later!

This weekend...I spent more money than the law allowed.  I bought some clothes (they were all clearance with and additional 40% off...HEY...I'm a woman and I couldn't pass up a deal like that!!)...lost my cell phone...got a new phone that I still can't figure out how to answer.  The phone thing...well...it was a great deal so I decided to get it.  All the bells and whistles are included - a phone, a camera, an MP3 player, bluetooth technology (I won't use that because I think that everyone that has one of the things look like The Borg...yes I LOVE all things Star Trek)  and it slides up like the phone Neo used in The Matrix.  It is called a RIZR (I skipped the RAZR and went right to the next level I guess) and the kids think I am so cool because I have one.  I just want a phone that I can use and hear out of...and since it slid open I was confused as to how to answer the thing.  When it rang I just stared at it...my son and daughter (while rolling their eyes) had to show me what to do.  I guess I am officially clueless!  :)

I fried some chicken again for the kids...I really really wanted to have some so I decided I would try doing my low carb version.  I put some chicken aside and started to look for the "breading" that I wanted to use.  NOTHING! NADA!  I had already seasoned the chicken and had the egg ready...I decided to just fry with no coating at all.  YUM!  I like this better than the other recipes.  This is truly lowcarb fried chicken because I used nothing but salt, pepper, cayenne pepper and egg.  I cracked an egg over the chicken...mixed it until it was coated and threw it in the deep fryer.  The kids like my flourless version better than the regular chicken.  They couldn't tell there was no breading at all because the skin was nice and crispy...just like fried chicken.  Home Run !!  I think I will make my fried chicken this way from now on...Popeye's can keep their naked chicken strips.  I think they make them too salty anyway...and in my opinion my recipe tastes better and easy as hell.  :)

I have some things to do to  prepare for work tomorrow.  I just wonder where my weekends go??  They should give everyone off Mondays...face it noone really gets it together until Wednesday anyway.  If I have time I will post again...

Later!

MommaTwin has lost a total of 7.5 pounds on Kimmer's Plan.  She may have lost more since I last talked to her...once I get the updated loss I will post it.  My Momma is doing so well...she isn't exercising like I am, but Kimmer lost all her weight and didn't exercise herself.  As long as she feels good...I am happy for her.  WonderTwin (Lou) has started to work out with me again.  We did two days of Amped and tonight he is doing Taebo Contact (Billy Bag and all).  I am so proud of him.  He made a bet with a family friend and he is three weeks behind in starting.  I know that once he makes up his mind he will rock his program and catch up.  I am sure he doesn't want to lose this bet...there is something about dressing up as Shrek or Donkey for Halloween for the loser.  I think that would be cute win or lose...but my brother has a competitive nature and there is no way that he will go down without a fight.  :)  I still think he would make a cute Shrek.

The job is going good.  Today we went to Staples and ordered me a desk.  They spent a mad amount of money on the damned thing so I KNOW I am there to stay.  I just can't wait to get settled in and start doing my job for real.  I hate feeling homeless... but at least I am still getting paid.

I feel great...loving the workouts and the eating plan I am on.  I sometimes wonder why I waited so long to do this for myself??  I guess (like my brother) I just had to be READY for a change.

Watching Hell's Kitchen right now...I am GLAD I flaked out on the auditions.  I don't think I would last three minutes in the room with Chef Ramsey...Lordy that man can be abusive at times!

Later!

Another observation...A Rant Really:

HOW MANY POPEYE'S ARE OPEN IN THE U.S.??

HOW LONG HAS POPEYE'S BEEN AROUND??

WE ARE ALL CLEAR THAT POPEYE'S SELLS CHICKEN AND BISCUITS (AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT THE SIGN SAYS)...RIGHT??

Now that the questions have been asked...why is it that I always seem to get behind the one jackass that acts like he has never seen nor heard of Popeye's chicken before?? If you are not sure what it is you want...do not GET IN THE POPEYE'S LINE DURING LUNCH AND ASK A QUESTION ABOUT EVERY ITEM ON THE MENU AND AFTER 10 MINUTES OF BULLSHITTING AROUND DECIDE YOU WANT A BREAST AND A BISCUIT! GAWD! What a Fuckface!! If you only could have been there...this guy was acting like Popeye's was a new conceptual restaurant or something. Dude...Get a two piece and a biscuit meal and ride the fuck on...people have to get back to work!! I know what the comedian Louis C.K. meant when there are just some people that you hate...instantly...in a line. This guy is probably the nicest guy in the world...but at that moment he was an inconsiderate idiot...asking what did Popeye's sell?? They sell Toys...Jackass!

/rant

On a good note that guy pissed me off so much that my original plans to cheat and get a Two Piece Mild with Onion Rings turned into a King Sized Diet Coke. The heat coming from behind that counter was making me nauseous and I had a chance to look at the guy and the people cooking and serving the chicken...I have this thing about sweat and it being in my food. So if it wasn't for Fuckface...then I probably would have cheated on Kimmer's Plan and would have to restart. :)

later...I need to workout when I get home. I'll see if I can get WonderTwin to join me...Billy awaits!

Later!

Off to sweat some and then eat something.

Let's Make A Deal is almost over...then it will be Taebo for me.

24.5!!

NORMAL RANGE!! WOOHOO!!

That is a great accomplishment saying as though 33.8 and I was in the Obese range. It has been so long since my BMI has been in the Normal range. I would love to achieve Athletic ...I'll see what happens in the next couple of months.

Did Taebo last night...Advanced Live 5. I think this is one of the harder ones due to the fact that it is nothing but floor work. He calls it the Taebo Butt-Work On The Ground. Yes. I have to agree with him there.

Tonight will be me and Lou doing something...anything...to get him back in the swing of things. I want the exercise to become a habit again for him.

I'm posting from work...I have a ton of suspense to do before I can go home. The joys of being a secretary...

I am 18 pounds from the goal weight that I set for myself and I seem to be sabotaging myself. The last time I lost a major amount of weight the same thing happened...I gotaround 15 pounds close to the goal that I established for myself and then I flaked out. I really cannot understand why I do this...I am not afraid of making my goal. If anything I can't wait to get there so I can see if I can maintain what I achieved...but I find myself accepting excuses that I make NOT to workout. Justifying eating brownies ...my daughter made them...HOW can I resist something that my CHILD baked?? :D What I am doing is the equivalent of taking a flight across country and deciding to end my journey and get off the plane before it lands. Makes no sense that I have come this far only to start becoming sloppy and lazy with my eating and exercising. Sigh...

SOOOOO...I am putting that serious back on my face! Yesterday was Day 1 of my 21 days of exercise and eating clean.

Did Taebo Total, Workout 2- 1 hour. My eating was basically clean except for the couple of bites of brownies that my daughter baked for me and The Boy.

Taking CLA, ALA, GLA stack with Active Woman's Multi-Vitamin (My hair is beautiful since taking these things)

Drinking more water than the law should allow.

Tonight I think I will kidnap Lou and we will go on the elliptical for an hour . I will stick to my diet (so far I have been good) and try out a new program called Traineo.

I am posting at work so this will be short...will post again later this evening. Gotta stay honest!!

I am thinking about getting a shirt that says "LOU'S BIG SIS" and wear it when we go to the gym together. We got funny looks when we walked in together to use the elliptical. This town is small and I think that most people don't realize that Lou has a Big Sis in town. I had to ask Lou if this certain man KNEW that he has a sister. The cross-eyed look was really funny...but no matter...we got our sweat on and I felt wonderful afterwards.

I am having a craving for chili. I mean it has become ridiculous...so that is what I will throw together while I am doing my ab workout. So hungry right now....I had McDonald's last night and that was a big mistake. It is almost like my body is allergic to fast food (high in carbs fast food)...it rejected it almost immediately. I feel empty now and like I chowed down on Drano instead of the cherished food of my youth. Never again...even though I will miss the Clown food dearly.

Off to cook and sweat...later!!