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It was a spinal stroke

jane121 — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 11:53:00 +0000

I will create a little rehab room for her and we'll nurse her back to health. I'm not sure if she'll completely recover or how long it will take but thankfully my worst fears weren't confirmed. The vet says we might be able to take her home on the weekend and that she has improved a tad (may be able to us the bathroom on her own). She seems awfully frustrated about her limited mobility so maybe a doggie wheelchair will come in handy. I know she'll be a lot happier to be home.

Waiting & Hoping

jane121 — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 01:38:52 +0000

Reflecting as always.......

beans3bk — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 12:22:49 +0000

I really have been so busy that I can’t stand it trying to balance family, work, school and love is really tiring me out. I feel like something is being neglected. I work full time to feed my family, I go to school to make a better life for my family. My love is eventually going to complete my family. I try to make sure all my people are taken care of. I was on my way to work this morning. Reflecting as always. I do some of my best thinking on I-75 but I was just going over my life and what the next few years will bring for me and my children. My ultimate goal is to have a wonderfully blended family, a house, an oversize SUV and my baby. I think about my future and am in awe at the change of events that have occurred within my life. I think about my baby and all the things he had to overcome to be in the state he is today. I think of my children and how the piece that they are truly missing is about to be fulfilled. I know he is the man for me, but also for them. I watch them interact with each other. I see how he treats them and I am so happy that God has placed this man in my life to fill the void that has been missing in theirs. My boys need a role model and this man is like the perfect dude. He is so mild mannered and caring. I sit and think how we will all do movie nights and the kids will get bigger and not want to be bothered with us and how when they all leave it will just be us. I think of us growing old together. Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined all this and now here it is. I need to let people know that this human blessing was only sent into my life after I decided I was going to live and do right. Previously, I’ve dated men, never thought of them as father material but all that has changed. I want him for me but I am so happy for my children, so while their father continues to live in the mind of a teenager God has sent me a man, a real man, to assist me with the growth of my family. Friday is muffins with moms at the school and now I must go and support my children once again. I will be back later because I have a few funnies from my Kings Island trip, Pray for me as I work on deciding what I want to give to God to breathe on. I have a vision of service, I now need his blessing and I am about to make my move. Be blessed,

1000

beans3bk — Mon, 25 Aug 2008 12:28:20 +0000

Today, I hope to get my thousandth hit. It has been a long road since I started this blog. I’ve been through so many things and I was so happy to express them in a non judgmental forum. I know some people read my blog and don’t comment and that’s fine. I have really made a transformation in the past few months, so much so that I can’t hardly believe. Last night I actually sat back and thought about what I was doing this time last year and my life has done a complete 180. I know people think I am crazy for telling the truth about how I really used to be, but I believe that one part of my of my healing is talking about my issues and moving forward. I can’t half testify about the goodness of God. When I say “You don’t know what he’s done for me”. This is real. I am trying not to cry because I have a lot to do but the miraculous things that have manifested in my life in the last six months are beyond belief. People that have known me for years are just shocked. People I used to party with are just baffled by me. I can’t explain how it happened. The only word I could use is suddenly. Everything just began to fall in place. I searched all my life for a love and the minute I decided to give up this senseless flesh, money and stuff driven pursuit, pure love falls in my lap. But I had to let go and let God take control of my life. Am I perfect no, but I am so much better. This is truly a day of reflection and thanks. I am alright now, I’ve made it and I am so happy. Stay tuned, the best it yet to come for beans!!!!!

I'm scared

jane121 — Mon, 25 Aug 2008 10:18:50 +0000

The vet thought our baby had a slipped disc so we took her down to an animal hospital in Sydney. They did a CT scan and they still don't know what it is. She's having an MRI on Wednesday.

I really scared and worried. When we're near her she begins crying because she wants us to take her home. She doesn't want us to leave her there but we have and now she's so far away from all her family. I want to be able to bring her home and I want her to be happy and healthy again. I know it's hard for some people to understand but she means so much to me and my family. She's our baby and such a loyal loving dog.

I don't know what to do. I just want her back. When I was little I used to pray when I got scared and upset but now I have no faith left because I've heard of all the horrible things in the world. With all the tragedy and heartbreak in the world would anyone care about a family and their beloved dog?

I don't know if my baby is going to be ok

jane121 — Sun, 24 Aug 2008 06:58:06 +0000

A few days before my parents left for Europe I felt like something bad was gonna happen. They left yesterday and now my dog is at the vet. She and one of my other dogs got into a fight (they are always fight when my parents are away) and my sister pulled her away. My sister started crying out for me and I ran in to find that our beautiful doggie couldn't walk, she was just dragging herself along on her front legs.

It was awful. We had to leave her at the vet with her crying and desperately trying to get to us from her cage - she was thrashing about desperately and in pain. The vet doesn't know if she'll be okay, we have to wait until tommorrow to find out. I don't know what to do, she's my baby. I don't know how I'm going to tell my parents. I don't it even wanna log back in here because she's my password and typing it in is hard.

I pray she gets better.

Real Love, Nothing Like it

beans3bk — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 14:43:15 +0000

I have been contemplating writing this blog all morning, but here it goes. Last night my baby and I had a conversation, as I have stated before beans has not always known God. No I can’t say that but I will say she hasn’t had such an intimate relationship with him. Last night we talked, not as lovers as friends. I told him some things I am not so proud of but they were some things he needed to know. Do you really want to tell the man of your dreams, I used to be your local gardening tool, no, but you need to be honest. Never in my entire adult life have I made so many admissions to my past. I told him to ask me anything and he went for the jugular. He never presses me because he knows I don’t want him to see me in an unflattering light but I needed to be transparent. As the questions grew harder I realized how much he truly loved me. After what I told him, some men would still run for the border. We talked a lot about our initial encounters. How we have so much chemistry. I know he knows me. I told him and this is just being real, that I trusted him with my life. You don’t offer your life up to too many people. But this was the scenario. I told him if I was standing in the street and a car was coming, and he said just stay there until I tell you to move. I trust him to save me. I am not thinking in the sense of Captain Save A ---, but in the since that I know this man has my best interest at heart. He knows my needs, he knows my heart. He can tell when I need to be held. He knows when to make me laugh, he knows to get ready because I am about to cry. He reminds me of an angel, in human flesh. I don’t tell him these things because he is kind of cocky, but he has made my life complete. I have no idea what the future holds. There has been a lot of pain and tears for the both of us. So we confront each day as they come, but I know he will be in my life for the rest of my life. Real Love, True Love.

This blog is my testimony........

beans3bk — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 12:25:08 +0000

Well I am back once again with nothing profound to say, some people told me that my blog was boring, there was no direction, but I really don’t care. This is my therapy, my testimony so you get what you get. My daily rantings about my busy life, my relationship with God, my kids, my family, and my baby. I have those things on my mind because they are so dear to me. People say you speak often about what is close to your heart. Well those things are right at the epicenter of my world. I love my kids, they are a trip, but they are so important to me. I feel that I need to be an example for them in every way. I am the head of my family and I need to make sure they are straight. At this point I am their sole provider and I will do my best to make sure they get what they need.

Now God is the piece that holds beans together. I can’t even wake up unless he allows it. He makes it all happen; he feeds me and gives me all I need. I am truly blessed to have a relationship with him. He is my all. He loves me in spite of me. I recently had a cousin that died and nothing is more reality than a funeral. It gets no realer than death and I am so glad that I have God in my life forreal, so I can experience life in a new light. I think of all the stuff I did. He could have very easily let me die so many times and the scary part is that I really didn’t even know him. Now that I do, I look at it all in a different light, I don’t want to go, because I have so much unfinished work of his to do but if he sees fit I won’t be mad because I know his work will come forth anyway. That is one thing I have learned in my daily walk. If I don’t follow him, it hurts nobody but beans, He will get the glory in every instance but if I am too silly to realize who deserves it I am only hurting myself. I feel like I am preaching but this is where I am at with God. He does his part and I need to do mine in order to live the life he has designed for me to live. Now my baby and I are a work in progress. We love each other and he has been the missing link that I needed to hold it all together. God has put us together for a reason, to be able to tell others of his greatness. The storms we have endured and the fact that we are still standing are a miracle within itself. I will give you more details on his journey in time, but know that God has a serious work for his life too. I just needed to put these thoughts in the atmosphere, be blessed………

Long Weekend, Wahoo!!!

lajaymz — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 05:24:33 +0000

Yup, medyo masaya yung weekend kasi it was a 3-day vacation for me and my baby. That's why sinamantala namin by bumming around starting Friday night (afternoon for my baby) hanggang Saturday night. We watched several movies na nakatambak na sa PC ko habang nakahilata lang kami sa kama (Comments on the movies on a later post). Pero symepre kelangan gumawa ng regular chores sa bahay which we did nung Sunday. Tapos nung Monday naman, nag-grocery kami sa SM Sta. Mesa, kung saan meron din palang Sale, which started nung Friday pa at dapat natapos nung Sunday. But I guess na-extend hanggang Monday which was good kasi we were able to avail discounts on some of the stuff we bought. Anyway, yun lang naman nangyari sa akin this weekend at ngayon, balik trabaho na. Kelangan humabol as usual kasi naiwan yung work kasi wala nga ako kahapon. Anyway, yun na lang muna...

Excited na din pala ako kasi long weekend na naman this coming weekend kasi wala ulit pasok sa Monday. So WOOHOO!!!

I know he watches me…….

beans3bk — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 12:47:09 +0000

Good Morning, I was out for a few days, believe it or not, beans was sick. I am well now and I know God watches over me. My life has been taking an upward spiral. I know it sounds crazy but I have seriously been able to give God the glory for all I have been through recently because through it all I am still here. I am so happy that he has given me enough strength to endure. My health is never bad but I got sick and I had to drive myself to the ER. Well I didn’t have to, I chose to because there was no sense of other people being uncomfortable on my behalf. It doesn’t matter now I am healed, they took x-rays and it was a pulled muscle but it could have been my heart or my lungs. Medicine can ease my pain, but while at the ER I saw so many things. I was amazed at all the people and their ailments you could see the pain on their faces. I felt bad for them and not taking their pain for granted but I ended up helping people get blankets and stuff because it was cold in there but I realized that I allowed God to use me in any situation.

My kids are in school, all is well, I am just so happy I was able to get what they needed. I finished off their school supplies list yesterday, and I have never seen children so happy about pencils and other stuff, but they were. I start school myself tonight and I am pumped too. I know I will be tired but I am working towards a goal. I need to do this for me. I need to do this for my family.

My baby is fine, we have been going through some things but God is working through both of us to realize after him we can also lean and depend on each other. I believe he is working things out and setting things up for us to trust one another. Without trust a relationship can’t prosper. He has been through alot and I think daily he sees I am sincere about this. My track record has not been the best but as I move forward I realize, that he is good to me and for me and he is truly a gift from God, be back later

Mirah Gayatridewi and Friends

pandebaik — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 00:32:23 +0000

This is the next generation of our family.

Song of the Day - Big Mountain's Baby I Love Your Way

lajaymz — Fri, 15 Aug 2008 05:34:14 +0000

Para sa baby ko... Konting jamming muna to end the week...

Baby I Love Your Way

Shadows grow so long before my eyes
And they're moving across the page
Suddenly the day turns into night far away from the city.
But don't hesitate
Cause your love won't wait.
Ooh, baby, I love your way. Wanna tell you,
I love your way. Wanna be with you night and day

Moon appears to shine and light the sky
With the help from some firefly
Wonder how they have the power to shine, shine, shine.
I can see them under the pine.
But don't hesitate, 'cause your love won't wait.
Ooh, baby, I love your way.
Wanna tell you, I love your way.
Wanna be with you night and day

I can see the sunset in your eyes
Brown and grey and blue besides
Clouds are stalking islands in the sun.
I wish I could buy one, out of season.

Lyrics from STLyrics.com

Mirah Gayatridewi, My Little Angel

pandebaik — Fri, 15 Aug 2008 01:32:03 +0000

This Is Mirah Gayatridewi

before her 2nd ceremony,

started try two tuning her clothes

and this is one of them.

So many things, So little time

beans3bk — Thu, 14 Aug 2008 13:05:07 +0000

Today, I must be brief I have a million things to do and of course no time to do them. I have an interview for an ideal position that will launch my career if I am given this opportunity. I wasn’t really even qualified for the interview so the mere fact they are willing to see me gives me hope. My son started school, the others are going. I am so happy that my children are growing up. Today I have to take them to practice and they have open house too, not sure how I will do it all but as you know it will get done. My cousin’s funeral is tomorrow, I am really worried about my dad because he has health problems but it should be ok. I need to see my baby because my schedule and his schedule are so hectic we haven’t spent a lot of time together this week, but absence makes the heart grow fonder so we are straight. I start school on Monday, I am excited. I love to learn new things, plus I like getting good grades. At 31 I hang my report card on the refrigerator too. Nobody gives me a dollar. Lol My grades make me feel good, and I think they encourage my children. So all is well on the home front. The Lord continues to bless me. Even in my adversity God still shows up and shows out, I’ll chat later. Pray for a sista……..

HOT SPICY " P E P P E R "

naush — Wed, 13 Aug 2008 02:10:02 +0000

[caption id="attachment_203" align="aligncenter" width="300" caption="Pepper when he was barely 5 weeks"][/caption] [caption id="attachment_205" align="aligncenter" width="300" caption="My bundle of Mischief .. Pepper .. hence the name."][/caption]

Still pressing and reflecting....

beans3bk — Tue, 12 Aug 2008 13:35:26 +0000

I’ve been away for a few days but I am back still reflecting and still in no weapon mode. These last few days I have been trying to figure out my purpose. I have been kinda going through an OK, your hear, now what’s next. I have so many hopes and dreams for the future, but nothing is concrete. I like to know what’s going to happen so I can plan. God is so good to me so I dare not worry about what the future holds but I am kind of lost. I keep having these dreams of drowning. So I know God is trying to prepare me for something. I love my baby but he is dealing with issues of his own that I really can’t help him with so I am keeping him in my prayers. I still wait on this revelation but nothing. God has put me in a place where I know to lean on him because none of the answers I search for can come from anyone else. My children are fine, school started, I managed to get the things they needed and no I haven’t heard from their father. It really is a hardship that he won’t do his part. I have turned the entire issue over to God, if there is any suffering or vengeance to be received it will come from him. I will not set myself up for anger and hatred. I have to love everybody or my walk means nothing. I will pray that he becomes a might man of God. Enough about that I will be back later.

Belated Happy Birthday, Nanay Angela!

lajaymz — Mon, 11 Aug 2008 05:25:37 +0000

It's my baby's lola's birthday last August 2. We were there for the small party. And here are the photos...