In other news, I had horrible nightmares today about renting this old house and as usual, it had a ton of doors.  I tried to keep them all locked, but I kept missing a lock and was terrified that someone was inside the house, waiting to harm me.  On top of this, my mom was in the dream, telling me I had to give up everything and take care of her, that I owed it to her to give up my life for hers.  I kept trying to say no.  It was a dream that kept twisting and twisting until I woke up in a sweat.  In the dream, I kept thinking, well, in this version of my life, I have to give up my happiness - it's just this life out of many.

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1. Pisces (2/19-3/20)

   Getting caught up in the past is not something you should be doing right now -- there are too many important opportunities in front of you, and you can't afford to be distracted by things that have already happened and don't really matter anymore. Instead, you need to be living in the present and realizing what is possible in your life. So put away your old photo albums, pack up your journals and start making plans for your future than have nothing to do with your past.

67.  I have never voted in my life.  And yes, I have bitched about George W. I suppose most people think I shouldn't because I didn't vote, but it's my one vote against, oh over a million?  It wasn't going to make a difference.  I know, I'll hear it on this one.  It's more that I think the system is so frakked up, I just can't stand to be part of it.

68.  I think that the more walls you put up, you become a prisoner of your own creation.  One of the reasons I'm so open and honest on here is that I refuse to be imprisoned by my own thoughts or emotions.

69.  I think you can love Carly Simon, but not James Taylor or vice versa.

70.  I love to kiss.  It's probably my favorite part of any romantic relationship.  Kissing is heaven for me. As long as he's a good kisser.

71.  If he's not a good kisser....he won't be good at anything else either.  Trust me, I've tested this out.

72.  I love snuggling and cuddling.  I nuzzle into the neck and that's my happy place.

73.  However, if it's time for sleep, you need to move to your own side of the bed.  I get too hot (temperature-wise) and claustrophobic otherwise.

74.  I love sex.  I love the sensations, the closeness, the textures.

75.  And as I've said before, if things are not right in the bedroom, they're not right anywhere.  All of your friends who say, we don't have a sex life but we're closer than ever...bullshit!!

76.  I think it's a personal choice as to how long you're in a relationship before you start having sex.  Sometimes you just know and sometimes it takes time.

77.  I don't think it's possible to include others in the bedroom and not damage your one-on-one relationship.  That's just my personal opinion.  Granted, I've never been open to trying that, either.

to be continued....

17. I didn't go to prom ever.

18. No one asked me to go.

19. I still served on the prom committee and helped do the decorating.

20. Honestly, I don't think I missed anything.

21. That being said, high school was not a horrible experience for me. I was friends with many people in many cliques - band, cheerleaders, nerds.

22. I was terrified when it came time to graduate and do something else. My life had been so orderly and to get out of that routine scared the bejeezus out of me.

23. I had one best friend and was very upset when (as she was thin and pretty) she started to move in different circles than I did.

24.  I was in the National Honor Society and held some sort of office in it - though I can't remember what....

25.  I played trumpet from 4th grade through 12th grade.

26.  I hated marching band.  But you had to be in marching band to be in symphonic band unless you had some reason not to be - like majorette, cheerleader, flags, or football player.

26.  I chose to major in music in college because, well, no one else was. My parents were big on individuality - however, they hated my choice of music.  Every day they would ask if I'd chosen a major yet.

27.  My major never ever changed from Vocal Performance.

28.  I graduated without really being able to read music still.

29.  I'm an incredible mimic that way.  I would just follow what everyone else did.  Learn from cd's.

30.  Finally, when I was several years out of college, my voice teacher taught me how to read music.

31.  I can sing in Latin, German, Italian, French, Spanish, Russian, Swahili (I'm not making it up - it's pronounced just like it looks), Japanese, Swedish, and oh yeah, English.  I can't speak any of it but English though.

32.  I did take 4 years of Spanish, 1 year of German, and 1 year of French. Nope, still just English here.  Although, I can understand some of Spanish.

to be continued....

2.  Which is fine, because although I believe in God and many of the events written about in the Bible, I don't take it as the final word on how things happened.  After all, history is written by the winners.

3.  I am the youngest of 5.

4.  You would not see the 5 of us together and think, oh, siblings.

5. I am the only one of my siblings who is overweight.

6.  But I'm also the one who is NOT on any type of cholesterol medicine. And no signs of diabetes.

7.  I smoked once when I was about 4 - took Bro2's cigarette out of the ashtray and puffed and choked.  Never tried it again.

8.  I had my first drink of beer at 6 or 7, from the same brother.  Beer.  Hated it.

9.  I didn't drink again until I was 13 - at a friend's aunt's house.  Whiskey,.  Hated it.

10.  I didn't drink again until I was 21.  Still hated it, but still did it.

11.  Back to the religion thing - I did go to the Methodist church as a child.

12.  And I was the president of the Youth Group for 2 years running.

13.  I had my first kiss in the basement of that church.

14.  I loved him all through into high school, until he graduated.

15.  He wouldn't date me because back then I was a size 14 and the other girls were much smaller.

16.  Years later, I found out he married someone who looked exactly like me, extra pounds and all.

To be continued...

2. I have never been baptized, but I don't think that will stop me from getting to heaven because....

3. While I believe in God and a great many events that are reported in the Bible, I don't necessarily believe that the Bible is the end-all, be-all of what really happened. So I am okay with not having been baptized.

4. As a child, my dream was to be the first woman in the MLB.

5. i haven't had cable or anything in 9 months now, and I don't think I am missing much - though I do download some stuff from iTunes. Also, there is nothing to that link between TV and obesity, as I am still overweight.

6. I can watch scary movies even though I live by myself. I'm very good at separating reality and fiction.

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PiscesPisces (2/19-3/20)

Expression is necessary in life, if you want to grow. In fact, it's the only way to show the world what you feel, while opening the door to feedback from others. Debate and conflicting opinions aren't necessary bad things -- they are often the key to improving yourself. So don't shy away from voicing your thoughts just because you think they will tick off everyone in the room. Getting a discussion going gives everyone the opportunity to learn something -- or to solidify their own positions even further.

Woke up from some amazing dreams.  Started out with me getting molested by Bro1's ex-wife, which I sincerely doubt happened.  Nevertheless, quite scary.  The the dream changed and I was Anastasia. Now, I was dreaming through her eyes.  What I saw from that perspective was a Christmas-type celebration - very decadent.  I remember in the dream following my little brothers outside and then watching my favorite horse galloping around the corral.  Then a hot rang out and my horse was dead.....this was all slow motion.  Then another shot rang out and my little brother was dead.

After that, the rest of us were herded back into the house and under house arrest.  Eventually, we had to leave the house.  Haven't studied the story of Anastasia in depth at all.

The very end of the dream, I was offered a job back at my old company and for some reason, I took it.

*Sitchyation instead of situation

*Abdorable instead of adorable

*Confussed instead of confused (because that is how a LOT of people spell it)

*Ish instead of it's

*Bamember instead of remember

All of these have to do with funny sitchyations and such.  And then there are some phrases:

*I see who you are now (instead of I see HOW you are)

*Shut it (instead of shut up)

Again, they all come out of memories with friends, laughing about something.

Time is always on an "-ish" factor for me. I will most likely tell you I'll be leaving work at 7ish, that I am doing laundry tomorrowish and that I need serenity nowish.

I know, I know, HOW have I remained single all of this time????  It's a mystery.

Today, one of my illusions about BossLady was shattered. I'm not going to say about what, although I have discussed with Miley (and that glass had shattered for her some time before.) And it's nothing horrible or anything I can't live with. It was just a disappointment. Ah well.

Oh yeah, and Wa-wa did that to me - pointed out something I do that, while she didn't say it was annoying, is one of my "ticks." When I get off of the phone with someone who is a friend of mine, I say, "Bye, honey...bye." And yes, now I notice it all of the time!!!

Other things I say over and over again?

*So there!

* And there you have it.

*It's all good.

*It's a good thing.

*There you go.

And glass has now shattered all over the place.

Which puts me in the same category as Nelson Mandela and the Dalai Lama.  Hmmmmm.

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The Professor sent this to me.

Your urge to get closer to someone in your social circle is becoming almost unbearable. But before moving forward, pay closer attention to the clues they are sending -- they are quite mixed! This person might not be quite ready to open up to you. To test the waters, keep your conversation light. Resist your urge to ask them to spend the rest of their life with you! Baby steps will get you closer to their heart than giant leaps (and they are a lot less intimidating!).

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