When you're on Safari, you know that mini spinning wheel on the status bar that spins when a page loads? How about when you're waiting for your RSS reader to load your feeds? Yes? I found a replacement for it on Cydia. Instead of that boring wheel, you can install an Apple logo that fades in and out. The best I could do is a screenshot and I know it's hard to demonstrate it with that. I think it looks pretty cool and definitely a keeper - I see enough spinning wheels on my iPod as it is so I welcome a little change. Try it out and see if you like it.

Again, it's available on Cydia and for Winterboard so it might be a good idea to have both installed.

Then the song...

Fortunately, there's an author on Storywrite who just reminded me of Kleist's wonderful essay that I read all those years ago - okay, maybe in grade nine - and was all... *o* over.

Here's the story...

...and here's the essay. If you happen to make even a lose connection between the two, then kudos, kudos to you, my friend. If not, well ask along a bit and i may be able to help you. I think it wouldn't be that transparent, and actually kind of... eh?!?!? to most people. (I almost write 'moist people' but I caught myself.)

On a less OMGTHOUGHTTIMETRAVELANDDIVIDINGBYZERO!!! note, I re-read 'Fading' today. (For everyone that forgot and/or hasn't read it it's here) I realized something...

BLOODY HELL Elliot, you're whiny. But I guess he has his excuse. Also, it's not as good as it was when I first wrote it, if that makes any sense. Also, even though I've had Mr. Aivery Schafer floating around in my head for a while, I managed to squeeze out a bit for one of my other characters, Emery Fields. He should be being used in my CYOA novel, but he has a higher chance of having his backstory written than having the CYOA done. But back to Aivee -

Is it possible to stab yourself in the throat, wreck your voice (like... soundless? Like cut yourself badly and render yourself incapable of speech?) and not bleed to death? I need a classy, long lasting injury due to failed suicide attempt that isn't maim-ful like what's-their-names in Ethan Frome (ugh). And I can't use brain damage, either. Gosh, I just sounded ultra-cold.

Oh, random crossection:

Kudos (more kudos?) to those who can guess what it is.

Also, I keep seeing this billboard around windsor with this guy in shades who reminds me of Dan Balan. Keep an eye out for it, yeah? Because this is what Mr. Balan looks like:

And every time I see the billboard it's like... heyyyy...

Also, neat random things on wordpress include

How To Fail Like An Asshat.

It's got some good points. Then again, so does Chris Crocker, but then Blogs aren't necessarily as, eh... Chirs Crocker-y. Ish. What's an Asshat, anyways?

Also, I think I like blogging.

I Googled how to take care of wounds and burns, and I couldn't find a single straight answer, I read that I should cover it, use Neosporin, use rubbing alcohol, hydrogen peroxide, saline washes, soap; and then of course I read in other places,that I shouldn't do any of those. I tried all of them over the past 4 days, and none of them seemed to help, the pain just got worse, and my ankle and foot had gotten really swollen.

I sucked up my pride, and got into the doctor the same day. Of course, being in a small town, the nurse looked at me like I was nuts after I explained what I was doing, and looked even more shocked when I showed her my sorry excuse for an ankle. After a very long two hours of sitting in the doctors office waiting for second opinions on what to do, I was given a few prescriptions...and get to go back for another visit this Thursday.

$130.00 worth of prescription drugs later...

• Silver Sulfadiazine 1% (Topical Antibiotic for burns)
• Levaquin 500mg (Oral Antibiotic)
• Darvocet (Pain reliever)

The doctor covered by tattoo with silver sulfa and bandaged it, so I wasn't able to get a picture of what my tattoo looked like right before using the prescription ointment, but I will keep on blogging the healing process. Just now, keep in mind for the next 7 days I'm on prescriptions. I will try to take pictures everyday, to see what kind of impact the prescriptions may have.

***One Day After Doctors Visit

(Silver Sulfa/Once a Day, Levaquin/Once a Day, Pain Relievers-As Needed)

The Nurse made it very clear that this is going to probably scar terribly. I am going to stay optimistic about it. Funny thing was she asked my if I knew how to post information on the Internet, she said that I really should warn people about the dangers of using Nuviderm...Ha. I am one step ahead of that!

I got to thinking, everyone I have talked to had a lot of trouble during their second application. I honestly haven't talked to anyone that was on their third or so application, since they all stopped after their second application. I have a feeling that treating the same area twice or more times, is just too much trauma for the skin to handle. I don't know if maybe waiting twice as long in between applications would help that or not.

On my previous post 'L' commented on using colloidal silver bandages; No one in town carries those here, but I think that is a great recommendation for anyone whose in the healing process. I would have to also agree, that 50% is way to strong. I used 46% this last time, and I'm really regretting that. I would definitely recommend using a lower strength...I would personally rather have to do many weak applications, than go through this mess again.

And to think the thought of *hmmm a facial peel might be nice* crossed my mind when I was researching TCA before I purchased nuviderm. I am SO glad that was just merely a thought...Can you imagine putting 12-30% strength on your face...It makes me cringe just thinking about it!

I almost forgot.  What would this post be without a nasty bandage picture?  My tattoo is still oozing.

***Bandage after day one of using Silver Sulfa. The discharge color is orange/brown.

My left index finger is approximately 3 1/2" long. It is a fine, unblemished finger. A creamy, peach color; darker on the bottom and fading lighter as your view rolls up its side. The nail is well-shaped. Perhaps the cuticle needs some work. Usually trimmed severely, the nail is now edged with white. Wrinkled at the knuckles slightly, the finger still looks youthful. It is a fine finger, indeed.

And it is very useful. If you have a left index finger that works properly, I'm sure yours is, too. Don't take the finger for granted; look at it closely; study it; watch the way it bends and folds into its wrinkles. View it from the side, bend it down and notice how the finger squares and displays a "Y" in its middle. Bend it, point with it, pick with it, finger things with it.

Isn't it a wonderful attachment to your self?!

Well, times are a changing...  Obama is now statistically tied with McCain in the same poll that only a couple weeks ago showed him with a super comfy lead...

Maybe he should re-think that rush to the right...  so, Obamatron...  where is your comfortable lead now, eh?

Story at Newsweek here.

..........Second Application........................First Application.......

The red outline around the tattoo is much darker than the first application. The same red outline during the first application is what scarred. We'll see if the red outline is going to result in a full outline scar of the tattoo. Also there is white in-between the tattoo and the red outline, when looking at it, it looks like a blister, but to touch, there is no blistering. The tattoo is numb to the touch at this point, and there is no pain.

*Before Second Application*

Application Process:

I Used 46% strength this time around, which is a little less than my first application. I would have to admit that the second application hurt much worse than the first. I would rate the ouch level at about a 5.5 out of 10. Even though it's been about 3 months since my first application, just scratching the treated area still stung a little, but i figured I don't want to waste any more time in between applications. I ended up putting on 8 layers of TCA this time to completely frost the tattoo. The oddest thing was that I had a really hard time getting the bottom part (legs) to frost. I used a good ol' beauty school trick this time too, we would put conditioner or Vaseline around the hairline/neck/ears when doing chemical services to prevent running. I tried that this time, to prevent it from running around my ankle, it worked well. I think I might pick up a scar treatment to put on it while its healing too...any recommendations?

SOLD 728.80
BOT 727.80
+10tks

SOLD 726.70
BOT 727.50
-8tks

BOT 726.10
SOLD 725.30
-8tks

SOLD 725.40
BOT 724.30
+11tks

BOT 723.50
SOLD 724.30
+8tks

SOLD 726.00
BOT 725.50
+5tks

Profit: +18tks

I'm starting to control my losing trades better. Today's trading was started with a ranging temperament, so I based my entries on support and resistance(also known as fading). Then it broked the low and went downwards. I picked 2 wrong entries down the way - selling a rally in a downtrend, but apparently I sold too soon before the confirmation. I finally got it right on the 3rd time down the slope.

I picked one entry based on a double top pattern. Then the rest is all fading.

Notice that the last trade is 5ticks up. Same old problem of taking profit too soon again. It turned out to be a 10+ ticks move. Got to work on it.

SOLD @ 733.30
BOT @ 732.40
+9 tks

SOLD @ 731.90
BOT @ 731.50
+4 tks

BOT @ 730.80
SOLD @ 731.30
+5tks
The 2nd and 3rd trade proved to be +10 tks each. But somehow, after a 1st good winning trade, I will take profit as soon as possible. Even the 1st trade was a +10 tks move. Seems like a subconscious habit. I would have gotten 30tks. But it was good enough to identify the safest entries possible.

Recently, I've started to trade with just tick charts and no indicators. Turns out to be very effective, because tick charts look smoother than minute charts, with them you will focus more on how the price is reacting to certain support and resistance level. I find this very crucial.

I found the following very effective:
1) Support or Resistance Levels made on the previous day and before market opens. To make it an even safer bet, the wicks of the candlesticks are super long, showing a very large number of opposite entries. These are very safe bets and I will test them out in the weeks to come.

2) Basic reversal patterns like double top, double bottom, head and shoulders. Basic continuation patterns like wedges, flag, cup and handles still waiting to be seen. And also breakout patterns like traingles.

3) Tick charts. The only configuration I can use on the TOS charts are 144tks and 288 tks. Serves better than a minute chart.

Ok, enough of trading. I'm closing shop tonight to rest early and do some other stuff related to my "real" life.

그리고 그러한 사항이 바뀜에 따라서 브레드 모드의 모양도 기존의 긴사각형에서 거의 정사각형으로 변화하게 되었습니다.

먼저  L293 (Drive IC) 의 경우에 모터를 2개만 받게 되어있는데, 라인을 브레드 보드로 빼서 4개가 들어갈 수 있도록 하였고, 2개의 모터는 결국 반대 방향으로 돌아가게 되는데 (+ -) 를 브레드 보드에 꽂을때 반대로 꽂게 되면 4개가 앞으로 전진하도록 할 수 있게 됩니다.

그리고 여러 방향으로 인풋을 아직 조사 중이기 때문에 우선적으로 cds 를 사용하여 진행하기로 하였습니다.

BTW, here are my "serious" trades for the past week:

Monday 9th June 2008
SOLD 1 @ 740.10
BOT 1 @ 739.20
profit: 90 - 9.20 = 80.80

Wednesday 11th June 2008

Thursday 12th June 2008
B 730.2
S 729.4 -8tks
B 729.5
S 730.5 +10tks
B 726.4
S 726.9 +5tks

7tks = 70-27.60 = +42.40

Total winnings for the week: $304.80

This is just a "fake" representation of what I really did. All these trades are made on "trending conditions" - the period from 11am onwards where the trend has shown itself regardless of what happened in the first hour. This has always been the case for this week.

Normally, I trade the 1st hour as a "warm-up" session to prepare myself psychologically and technically to take on losing trades head-on. The reason why I do that is because it removes the stress of losing later on in the game. As shown by my trades, after a warm-up session it is always good. So I might keep on doing this even when I start using real money.

Looking back in the week, while there was a big hooha about non-farm payrolls and the giant 300+ pts tank last week, CPI and Bernanke speaking this week, the way I trade still remains the same. That 300+ didn't affect my direction for the day - if the 15min candles shows up I will still buy and sell. It really doesn't matter if the overall market is tanking. All that matters to me is the supply and demand of the ER2 contracts.

That's the beauty of trading futures.

SOLD 1 @ 755.90
BOT 1 @ 755.20
profit: 70 - 9.60 = 60.40

BOT 1 @ 754.50
SOLD 1 @ 754.90
profit: 40 - 9.60 = 30.40

BOT 1 @ 754.70
SOLD 1 @ 755.70
profit: 100 - 9.60 = 90.20(trending)

total profit: 261.4

Finally, an hour of "warm-up" trading, I closed the platform and reopen it to trade. I find this very effective that I think will do a "warm-up" round every night from now ons.

I also find that my most consistent period was after 1030, the first hour.

DOM watching also works best at this timing. Levels of support and resistance are clearly shown in the DOM and price action.

If you're wondering why do I win all the time, I'll tell u this, I lost $400 in the first hour. I got every trade wrong and restarted the platform at 10:30 so to start afresh. This may be stupid, but the first hour was my "warm-up" session. At first it was not done on purpose, but now I seem to be so accustomed to it that I need it to make my trades later on more consistent. In a way it prepares me psychologically through losing repeatedly so as to not feel too much of an emotional impact if I lose later on. Whatever works...

More to come.

Signs that the market is ranging:
1) price doesn't obey breakouts, or having alot of fakeouts. at crucial breakout levels.
2) candle bodies are short and wicks are long
3) even balance of bid and ask quantity
4) alot of whipsaws in indicators

SIgns that the market is trending:
1) Smooth indicators on all charts
2) Candle bodies are longer and wicks shorter
3) Uneven balance of bid and ask quantity

Whatever mode comes, I should change the mindset and pay attention to different things. But today, right after open the ER2 was trending downwards and it stopped and ranged after that till 10am, when factory orders came out. It shoot up to the skies and started coming down. At this point of time it was impossible to tell if that move could sustain because it was due to a news. I went long awhile with a 4pt profit, which was quite silly considering the fact that it went up 10+pts more later on.

Then I was betting it would go back up...twice and lost twice. Oh ya, then I realized something, for the move to be sustainable, the 15 min candles should not change. That means in my uptrend, 15 mins candles should be a series of greens without showing any reds. But today it showed up on the 2nd candle right after that big move. Hence, that's another point that I can take note of.

With that, I conclude that today was a purely range day. And so far I haven't been making money with range days yet. I've got a long long way to go man~

Whenever it gets tough, I always remember what Donald Trump said to one of the candidates on The Apprentice...

"Are you a quitter? Are you a loser?"

It's funny that I use something like that to motivate myself. But it's really effective and it tickles me all the time.

SOLD 1 @ 744.8
BOT 1 @ 744.0
profit: 80-9.20 = $70.80

SOLD 1 @ 739.1
BOT 1 @ 738.3
profit: 80-9.20 = $70.80

BOT 1 @ 738.7
SOLD 1 @739.2
profit: 50-9.20 = $40.8

total profit = $182.4

I used 8:6 profit/loss today. The last trade hit a major resistance at 739.3 a number of times before I took profit. It broke up later on to 740.3 but didn't stay there for long. Good day today.

I feel a failure of the system or as a friend said maybe it is the system which failed me. I'm chronically anorexic and I think the hope of me finding a path to true recovery is fading. The doctors don't even try to force me to change anymore they just let me do my own thing; I feel they don't believe I can live any differently any more. I feel the system has given up on me or that I have given up on the system.

I'm miserable. I don't want the NG. I'm so tempted just to lie down and say this is it...I can't do it anymore. I owe it to the people who care though to keep on plodding along. I can't leave them wondering if they could have done something more. If anything does happen guys, you all did the best you could and I couldn't have asked for more...please believe that.

This is a very sad post to write. I feel hopeless and I haven't felt like that in a long long time. I feel I've lost faith and that in itself is painful for me. I've always kept going with the blind faith that I would find a path or someone would guide me but it feels like someone turned out the light. Please don't let my faith desert me when I need it the most... :(

"stick to the fight when you're hardest hit, it's when things seem worst that you must not quit..."

I am hanging onto those words. It is just I feel physically so unwell. I'm getting bad headaches on a daily basis, I'm getting palpitations which leave me feeling scared, yet still I look in the mirror and see something that just isn't there.

Sorry!

.............!!

Nothing lasts forever!
Even Love is a lie!
A tool for manipulation!
There’s no god beyond the sky!

::: “Book of counted sorrows” - Dean R. Koontz :::

saiju sreedharan says:

ashes in your hands
mercy in your eyes,
If you're searching for a silent sky...

the coldness of this words, the message in his silence,
"face the candle to to the wind..."
Posted 26 hours ago.

I glance in the mirror, I cringe, I walk away. I just can't face the person looking back, so sad, so broken yet trying so hard to be strong. I'm too tired, I can't keep up this act forever yet each day I get up, stand tough and paste the smile back on again.

But there are fireworks replacing the stars

Here we are sitting at the top of the roof

Gazing at this strange place that we call hometown

Changing senseless words in meaningless conversation

But words like these define moments

Changing senseless words in meaningless conversation

But words like these define moments

Moments

Moments

Moments

We're skygazing words are just fading

We are having this happy feeling

We're skygazing words are just fading

Soul still searching that happy feeling

'am missing my skgazing fella. thanks for making a piece of a memory of you and me sitting at that rooftop.

I have decided that firstly I want to develop a language with three different states that will be fading between.

It is:

Low consumption

Ordinary Consumption

High Consumption

Low consumption

I want to evoke feelings of calmness, happy, peaceful, and other positive emotions. To create this Im going to use the colors green and cyan/blue. This combination has the above stated affect but also it is supposed to have a very attention bringing side effect. Since having a very low energy consumption is something that people should be aware of and show of to friends and family having a color combination that does that is favorable. This color combination also have many connections to nature with trees, forest, ocean and sky which also fits nicely into my projects environmental side and it is said to be restfull to the eyes.

Ordinary Consumption

Since ordinary consumption is probably the thing that will mostly be displayed I don't want it to bring to much attention and it should be a little but more discreet than the other two states.

One color that will be used for this state is purple. It is generally regarded as an discreet color and it is one of the colors that attracts the least attention. It is also a nice mix between the high consumption colors and the low consumption ones. The color that Im going to mix this with is a harder decision. Im thinking of adding pink here but Im not sure of how that mix is going to look. Pink has some nice qualities such as being considered as warm, romantic, enjoying, and striking. This could fit nicely into my project but dont know if it to attention bringing. Think I will have to do more test about that.

High Consumption

For the high consumption mode I want to create attention to the wall and also put across a negative attitude. The primary colors here will be yellow and red. Red is a color that people expericence as it advances against them and that it is much closer than it really is. It is also high in the attention range which is favorable. References people have to this color is a mixed bag of both positive and negative emotions. There is both the heart love category but also many references to hate, blood and anger. Red is a very powerful color and many have different relations to it but I think it will fit in this category.

What do do??

Let's consider Fibonacci retracements. Fibonacci lines are drawn from the bottom to the top of a major move - it's really that simple - and the lines are then possible support and resistance. On a big move like we had several years ago on the pair, you reckon with the "fibs". We're right under the most significant one at .9350, and it has at been support/resistance before (see chart below). So how do we participate in such a nice trend with little room to run? By the time it breaks out it will be right under or at resistance...

Something you could try is "fading". I did an article on it in our technical commentary a while back, by the way. Fading is entering right at support - forget the bounce. Or better, you buy when the price is poking a little below the support line. The stop loss is placed just below support. The thought is if you lose you'll lose very little - as little as 20 pips. If you win, you'll have so much more to gain - say, 200 pips. There is a high chance the trade won't work because there's no bounce yet, but it allows you room to run if you're running out of room (resistance is close).

In the chart on the left, the red oval is an area you could buy if the price falls lower. The green is an example of a stop loss area. If you try fading, understand you'll have more losing trades the winners, so don't give up after a few losers. As with everything else, much practice is needed.