[audio http://www.realitegroup.com/MUSIC/THELONUIS.mp3]

Hey hey!! I hate that all of my recent posts have been kinda 'deep' on you but I'm going through it right now and sometimes the world moves so fast that listening has become an awarded luxury. :-)

I think I’ve been being very unrealistic and unfair to myself about what I am capable of doing for the sake of maintaining my status quo in the eyes of myself and others. Pride in some cases, sheer hope in some others. This week I’ve been making it a point to see my position in different areas and how I fit into the equation if I should be in it at all. The truth is that in the midst of being self less I’ve lost (and am losing) a lot of shit in my life and its just now beginning to hit me. I wish I knew a better way to find balance but I think if that balance was achievable, I would certainly be the first to embrace it. So what does that mean? Perhaps no more sappy bitch tears, no more worry about everything and anything that have nothing to contribute to my progression of self. I wish that could be me but it's not in my makeup. The one thing I have learned about being an adult is that I am a girl, and that's it. I'm gonna be everything that being one of those entails and that is ok. Even the girl in me is getting on me to cut a lot and let a lot go so I can claim my piece of mind. I got home today, worked out for a mere 30 minutes, cooked dinner, and plopped my sweaty hiney right here at my desk to get things done. Four hours later, I'm still sitting here tired as shit and messing with this blog before I hit the shower and then the bed only to start all over again. For some reason I always feel like I'm in a damn rush to get everything done and when its over, everyone's happy except for me the depressed and drained diva, lol. Who's fault is that?! What am I REALLY all about?

Guess I’m just kinda tired of making myself absolutely miserable by being disposable to everyone else but me. I need to change myself quickly because I see what's on the horizon. Have you ever seen a black woman all tapped out? I have and it's not sexy or supreme in the least bit. In some cases what I've put out has gotten me nowhere but in the same place if not worse off than I started. Pure indicator that I'm making my life difficult as hell by not doing shit in order. In other areas of my world I'm just standing there looking like 'what in the fukng fk am I doing'? It's so annoying to the point now that its comical and I have to laugh at my silly self when I look in the mirror to see what I've become. It's funny joke time cuz I know. I know I'm so much better, I know where I should be, but no matter how good of a person you are your heart doesn't get you into high places. Your DECISIONS do.

So..Heavy downsizing is underway! I owe it me to have my value restored and put back into my life instead of waiting around for it come to me 'just because I've sewed good seeds." Some of those seeds should have sprouted come spring but I have seen no harvest at all. Which leads me to my final question: What kinda ground am I sewing my precious seeds on? I know for certain my seeds are good, but the ground I've sewn them on just may not be right.

I'm saying enough's enough and getting real without fear of approaching a dead end that's near. On the other side are new beginnings and opportunities waiting to set me free. Let me just take fifty feet back to get black girl on track.

Peep the third verse of the song shun!

-black girl.

(The video is a slideshow of pictures to go with the song. :) )

What is the measure of a life well lived
If all I can offer seems too small to give
This is a song for the weaker, the poorer
And so-called failures

Little is much when God's in it
And no one can fathom the plans He holds
Little is much when God's in it
He changes the world with the seeds we sow
Little is much, little is much

Who feels tired and under-qualified
Who feels deserted, and hung out to dry
This is a song for the broken, the beat-up
And so-called losers
Little is much when God's in it
And no one can fathom the plans He holds
Little is much when God's in it
He changes the world with the seeds we sow
Little is much, little is much

Consider a Kingdom in the smallest seed
Consider that giants fall to stones and slings
Consider a Child in a manger
Consider the story isn't over
What can be done with what you still have

Little is much when God's in it
And no one can fathom the plans He holds
Little is much when God's in it
He changes the world with the seeds we sow
Little is much, little is much

Little is much when God's in it
And no one can fathom the plans He holds
Little is much when God's in it
He changes the world with the seeds we sow
Little is much, little is much

In a memo to the Joint Mediator, ENOUGH Co-Chair John Prendergast, Policy Advisor Omer Ismail, and Save Darfur Coalition President Jerry Fowler offer recommendations and note the critical need for the Joint Mediator to consult the people of Darfur, including internally displaced, refugee, and diaspora populations.

Read the memo Memorandum to Djibril Bassolé: Building blocks for peace in Darfur report (pdf)

Read a corresponding commentary by John Prendergast and Colin Thomas-Jensen on the Huffington Post.

Read the ENOUGH/Save Darfur Coalition strategy paper: Creating a Peace to Keep in Darfur.

ENOUGH Project | 1225 Eye Street NW, Suite 307 | Washington, DC 20005
ENOUGH is a project to end genocide and crimes against humanity.

For more information, go to www.enoughproject.org.

savedarfur.org

and now i know, i did the right thing.
which was to do nothing.

i have everything i need, but i lack love.
love and respect for my own being.

and im pushing all the right buttons,
im turning the other cheek.

it's about time i did this for myself.
finally. yehey!

      It is hard to find stability in the job market. The economy is rocky and that filters down to everyday people, like you and I; many of whom are facing foreclosure on their homes because of their financial situations.  

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      It is a terrible position to be in, struggling to break free and feeling like you are going now where fast.  There is something wrong with a world where people working hard, in an honest attempt to improve their lives; find themselves sinking deeper into financial despair.  Many people work more than one job, trying to keep their heads above water; and still, it takes them years to break even.   Is it any wonder why the American worker is discouraged?  It doesn't have to be that way!  You can keep the boss around long enough to learn how to earn your own independent income; so that you can get to a place financially where you can afford to lay off your boss; and begin to work for someone who cares about your well-being...that is you!

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we were wasting you wasted my time from the very beginning.

Play List :
01- Sweet Sacrifice
02- Call Me When You’re Sober
03- Weight of the World
04- Lithium
05- Cloud Nine
06- Snow White Queen
07- Lacrymosa
08- Like You
09- Lose Control
10- The Only One
11- your Star
12- All That I’m Living For
13- Good Enough

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"Let That Be Enough"

Switchfoot

I wish I had what I needed

To be on my own

'Cause I feel so defeated

And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless

And I have no plans

I'm a plane in the sunset

With nowhere to land

And all I see

It could never make me happy

And all my sand castles

Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me

Let me know Your touch

Let me know that You love me

Let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow

No one here could now

I was born this Thursday

22 years ago

And I feel stuck

Watching history repeating

Yeah, who am I?

Just a kid who knows he's needy

Let me know that You hear me

Let me know Your touch

Let me know that You love me

And let that be enough

I’m doing laundry and I chuckle remembering the great mystics who tell us that when we are doing something and the task becomes timeless, then we are living within…and offering our unique gifts to the world. So here you have it world…75 feet of clothesline and every inch of deck railing; full of laundry. I smile. I wander from piece to piece checking for dryness and warmth. I grab a sheet and pull it to my face to smell the deliciousness. It would be enough to dry these sheets and pillowcases and towels on one side, but I flip them over to allow every inch of fabric the same exposure.

I do not hurry. In fact, I hope this never ends. I need be nowhere other than this yard, soaked by last night’s rain and growing green under my feet. I let the sun be the multi-tasker… laundry, tomatoes, bee balm, wildflowers, my aching bones. These belong to the sun. I have only one task. It is enough.

I sit down with a glass of wine and consider the fact that even though it’s 7:00 pm I am able to watch the breeze in the sheets and feel the gradual completion of an afternoon’s art. In a moment I will sit my wine glass down and carefully fold the napkins, the pillowcases, the quilts. For now, I rock and sip and smile and breathe easy.

Tomorrow friends will travel from the steamy Triad to enjoy a few days here in the cool mountain air of Sadie’s Place. This day of laundry is more prayer than chore. I imagine my friends settling down to rest their heads on pillows that smell of sunshine and daydreams. Waking to birdsong, and sipping a cup of coffee in the rocking chairs on the front porch. I know, from my morning rituals here, that hummingbirds and butterflies will join them. Bumble bees and spiders and all manner of nature will gather to congratulate my friends on their front row seats.

How fortunate I am to be here now! To measure time in the number of clothespins applied and retrieved…the warming movement of sun on cotton…a breeze that catches the end of a quilt and turns it to kite. It is surely enough…and so much more.

Thank You!

We need to try harder or the results for Darfur will be more devastating, if that is even possible. The sense of urgency regarding Darfur can not be diminished, or the result will be death.

Eric Reeves, Darfur's Perfect Storm

Meanwhile at the U.N. it's more of the same. Darfur: UN envoy doubtful parties are willing to enter serious negotiations

In the meantime Executive Research
Associates and Manchester Trade are holding a Conference of eminent
international speakers entitled "Darfur and its Impact on Sudan and the
Region" on June 25, 2008, from 8:00 AM to 5:45 PM at The Madison Hotel in
Washington, DC.
The full press release is here

Though according to the Sudan Tribune "A Sudanese presidential adviser and a Darfur rebel chief declined invitation to participate in a conference".

Ante Up for Africa Celebrities Set to Do Some Good

This is the second year that Don Cheadle and his friends have put on the Ante Up for Africa charity poker tournament. Taking place July 2, 2008 at the Rio in Las Vegas, this tournament will raise much-need funds that will help to raise public awareness and provide support for the victims of the humanitarian crisis in Darfur.

Poker fans can expect to see many of the entertainment world’s top stars as well as poker’s biggest names at this year’s event. Celebrities expected to attend include Ben Affleck, Matt Damon, Adam Sandler, Ray Romano, Kevin Pollack, Cheryl Hines, and George Lopez. Poker pros expected include Doyle Brunson, Phil Ivey, Daniel Negreanu, Howard Lederer, Phil Hellmuth, and a host of others.

One of the year’s premier charity poker tournaments, last year’s fundraiser generated more than $700,000. According to host Annie Duke, it should be an exciting night. “After the success of last year’s tournament, we are looking forward to another excinting year while raising awareness for an ongoing crisis,” said Duke in a recent press release. This year’s tournament donations are going to ENOUGH (www.enoughproject.org), a joint initiative of the International Crisis Group and the Center for American Progress and Not On Our Watch (www.notonourwatchproject.org).

Long Train Running

Yesterday’s second day of Event #33 looks like it will be the longest day of this year’s WSOP. Unfortunately, after 16 hours of play, Howard Lederer bubbled the final table, collecting $30,668 for his efforts. There are plenty of solid players left at this final table including Annie Duke, Chris Ferguson, and Marcel Luske and it should make for an exciting final table. Keep an eye out for online monster Steve Sung as he could sneak one by the experienced field.

Editor's Note: The final table of this tournament is taking place as I go to print.

Two-Timers Do It Better

“Why do you think the same five guys make it to the final table of the World Series every year. It’s a skill game,” said Mike McDermot in the movie Rounders. Proof of this exists in the number of players that have made two or more final tables. Led by Erick Lindgren, Daniel Negreanu, Andy Bloch, this list consists of several players that are always in the hunt for a title. There is still plenty of action being wagered on the Player of the Year race, so expect several of these players to do just about anything to take down another bracelet.

happy father's day
daddy
dada
pa

you gave me all
precious to hold
but you broke
my fragile soul
i gave you all
i had within
my rainbows
songs of love
stories of hope
dreams to fly
innocent naivete
a little girl's heartcry

you took from me
adoration
dedication
admiration
and you gave it all
to her
who held a knife
to my throat
who tortured
with her taunts
my inadequacy
insecurities
fears
of never being
good enough
for you

and you?
you preferred her
despite my pleas
you just would not
believe
said i was
jealous
making it
my fault
my wrong
my stupidity
i was everything
i was too much
but never
enough

how i grieved
heartbroken
she was pretty
beguiling
manipulative
i was odd
guileless
imaginative
both your little girls
i don't begrudge
your love for her
it just hurts
that you used me
for your entertainment
and you chose her
for your protection

i was gutsy
never cried when it hurt
she was whiny
a boy-crazy flirt
were you taken by
her feminine wiles?
was i not also
your tender little child?

happy father's day
daddy
dada
pa

you are gone now
no more yearning
for love
you will never give
i know the guilt
of trying too hard
but guess what?
i've grown up now
to give my heart
to a man
just
like
you
daddy
dada
pa

It has been a long 2 weeks of my life. And ironicall enough I found myself in need of guidance, motivation and inspiration! Somehow I found myself feeling lost and confused. My life  was being questioned in my eyes. I myself became aware of the fact that my parents still consider me a little impulsive boy that has no idea what he is talking about and that his marketing is only a hobie for fun. More than that, I recieved same reaction from my best friend...

I can honestly tell you it was tuff to deal with that, but I ain't talking about this negative experience only because I need to spil my heart and soul, I am making a point here, guys.

No matter who you are, what you have seen and/or experienced in your life, what hurdles you had overcome, there always will be moments when you will have to find someone to guide you, to keep you motivated, to inspire you, not to let go and to keep dreaming and believing!

I am encouraging you to go and find yourself a mentor, a role model, someone who makes you feel good when you are around him/her and has value in your eyes. Ultimately, this will be the person who will drive you towards your goals and dreams.

Please! Do yourself a favour and don't underestimate the power of guidance & mentorship, simple advice or maybe just someone who is willing to listen to what you have to say.

And the listening part, I think, is a whole another post on itself, so I will cover it later. Untill than, remember the words of mr.Angelito Felix:

"In order to succeed you need to find people who already succeeded in what you are aspiring to do"

Take Care!!@

Come to think about it, its an anti-climax. You can equate it with the hype built up for an Indo-Pak cricket tie and it being rained off before starting! It is a flaw, the expression is. I mean what are you trying to convey by saying something like 'Enough is enough!'? Is it something that you had to yell out so that the world could enlighten itself on it? Or you discovered the mantra in those moments of anger, pain and frustration? Or is it something that noone has ever acknowledged before you chose to? WHAT??????

Enough - the word, throughout the history of its existence on this planet, has always been known as 'enough'. I can assure you. I even pledge that never was 'enough' known as 'dsflkjgvn' or aerhdewdfen' (or any such typo I can come up with). Then why do we keep on harping 'enough is enough'? Let us make a start somewhere. 

In fact, the time is ripe, right now. You have just read this post and decided that you won't ever visit my idle-mind workshop that this site represents. So, go on, determine it for yourself and tell me how I have had it this time or how I could ever fall to such an extent and all that sort of things. Say what you like but you know what not to say :)

Several years ago, I attended a protest against sweatshops where the organizers had not invited the typical rally speakers — lawyers, activists, advocates. Instead, they brought kids from the sweatshops. A child from Indonesia pointed to his face. "I got this scar when my master lashed me for not working hard enough. When it bled, he did not want me to stop working or to ruin the cloth, so he took a lighter and burned it shut. I got this scar making stuff for you."

As I shared this story with my friend, she questioned, "Well what can we DO about it?!"

That's the million-dollar question. It's a heavy prospect to realize that the clothes we wear cause people real pain and that the money we spend on them finances unethical treatment of fellow human beings. The Center for a New American Dream has some good resources about practical ways we can alter the way we live, encouraging us to "consume responsibly to protect the environment, enhance quality of life, and promote social justice."

Here are some of my suggestions for doing what we can in our daily lives to aid the problem:

1. Pay the extra money for fair trade products.

2. The way to afford fair trade products? BUY LESS!

3. Make your own clothes (and anything else that can be made out of fabric). Be resourceful about it: use old clothes/sheets/curtains/fabric to create something new and useful.

4. Visit thrift stores and garage sales...not to buy tons of cheap crap that you won't use, but to enjoy searching for things that you NEED and CAN use.

5. TRADE items with friends. It's fun.

6. SHARE what you have with your roommates, family, friends, neighbors, co-workers, church members, etc.

I love clothes. But over a year ago I realized that I always bought new clothes before they ever got worn out. So I made a commitment to not buy any new clothes for a year. It was rough at first.

I don't know when it happened, but as the year went on, my coveting of new clothes seemed to disappear. As I sewed holes in jeans, skirts, and shirts, I began to learn what contentment felt like. I've passed the year of my commitment to not buying new clothes, but I have no desire to buy any anytime soon.

As a college graduation gift, my aunt generously gave me a gift certificate to Revive, a wonderful fair trade clothing store located in Cleveland Hts. On my first trip there, I was so overwhelmed with the ability to buy whatever I wanted that I ended up being unable to choose anything. I'm slightly closer to understanding what it means to have ENOUGH. Only slightly though. I have a lot of work ahead of me.

I still don't get it. And this has happened numerous times to me and I just have enough. More then enough.

Working on solving poverty in the UK, the foundation wanted to ascertain the costs of a decent standard of living, so they could compare it to current welfare allowances. The sum they have come back with amounts to £210 per week for a single person, £626 for a couple with two children. See the table below for the breakdown of where that goes.

What do you think? Realistic? What do you think is enough?

Those on state benefits receive about two thirds of what they need, the report concludes. The basic state pension gives you about three quarters.

The two other figures I've picked up for 'enough' are higher, at £355 a week and £300, but of course everyone is going to have their own benchmark. Despite the 'how long is a piece of string' nature of the question, I think it's something we all need to think about, for a variety of reasons. The great lie of the consumer culture is that you need more, more stuff, more experiences, and to pay for those you need to earn more. It's very easy to get sucked into a lifestyle where you're working flat out to keep up with the 'needs' you've created for yourself. Or, like the report I mentioned at the beginning, you may even convince yourself that you don't earn enough. Since that is actually highly unlikely, that's an ungrateful way to live. It's that kind of attitude that makes it so difficult to encourage people to scale back their consumption, or to buy ethically, to resist the cheap exploitative deals - if we think we're missing out, that the world is somehow short changing us, we won't ever make sacrifices for anyone else.

Finding your 'enough', and sticking to it, is actually a very liberating thing. It stops that endless worry that we're not quite at the level we should be at. It gets us off the treadmill of up-scaling wants. It allows us to be generous with the remainder.

Read the full report here.

(We don't want them, We want everything)
(And we told them to want everything)

We don't want them, we want everything
We’ve stolen in this suffering
And we told them to want everything
But use caution in what you believe
And the haunted, deny everything
Controlling in this suffering
When they’re broken, and lost everything
They're so much easier to lead

Take their hope away
Take their life away
Leave them nothing left inside

When you’re own have died
When there's no more pride
When your soul is frozen
Is that enough
When your heart is broken
A thousand times
With every moment
Is that enough?

Without warning, we take everything
Undaunted in this suffering
The dark forces surround everything
Make it impossible to see

Take their hope away
Take their life away
Leave them nothing left inside

When you’re own have died
When there's no more pride
When your soul is frozen
Is that enough
When your heart is broken
A thousand times
With every moment
Is that enough?

Haven't they suffered enough, Haven't we suffered enough
Haven't they suffered enough, The Damage more than they can bare
Haven't they suffered enough, Haven't we suffered enough
Haven't they suffered enough, The Damage more than they can bare

Did they even have the reason why
Countless sons and daughters had to die
Can you even comprehend the pain
Tell me when your

Own have died
When there's no more pride
When your soul is frozen
Is that enough
When your heart is broken
A thousand times
With every moment
Is that enough?

When you’re own have died (have died)
When there's no more pride (no more pride)
When your soul is frozen
Is that enough (Is that enough)
When your heart is broken
A thousand times
With every moment
Is that enough?

TRADUZIONE:

(Noi non li vogliamo, noi vogliamo tutto)
(E gli abbiamo detto di volere tutto)

Noi non vogliamo loro, vogliamo tutto
quello che abbiamo rubato nella sofferenza
E gli abbiamo detto di volere tutto
ma usa cautela in quello che credi
E le prede, negano tutto
Controllano in questa sofferenza
quando sono rotti, e perdono tutto
sono molto piu facili da comandare..

Porta via le loro speranze
Porta via le loro vite
Lascia niente dentro di loro

Quando tu stesso sei morto
Quando non c'è piu orgoglio
Quando il tuo spirito è congelato
E' questo abbastanza?

Senza preavviso, abbiamo preso tutto
Tenaci in questa sofferenza
le forze oscure circondano tutto
rendendolo impossibile da vedere

Porta via le loro speranze
Porta via le loro vite
Lascia niente dentro di loro

Quando tu stesso sei morto
Quando non c'è più orgoglio
Quando il tuo spirito è congelato
E' questo abbastanza?
Quando il tuo cuore è stato rotto
un centinaio di volte
in ogni momento
E' questo abbastanza?

Non hanno sofferto abbastanza, non abbiamo sofferto abbastanza, non hanno sofferto abbastanza?
Il danno è più di quello che possono coprire
non hanno sofferto abbastanza, non abbiamo sofferto abbastanza, non hanno sofferto abbastanza?
Il danno è piu di quello che possono coprire...

Hanno mai ricevuto una ragione
innumerevoli figli e figlie sono dovuti morire
Puoi almeno comprendere il dolore
Dimmi quando

Tu stesso sei morto
Quando non c'è più orgoglio
Quando il tuo spirito è congelato
E' questo abbastanza?
Quando il tuo cuore è stato rotto
un centinaio di volte
in ogni momento
E' questo abbastanza?

Quando tu stesso sei morto (è morto)
Quando non c'è più orgoglio (niente più orgoglio)
Quando il tuo spirito è congelato
E' questo abbastanza? (è questo abbastanza)
Quando il tuo cuore è stato rotto
un centinaio di volte
in ogni momento
E' questo abbastanza?

*L'audio del video è veramente di cacca*

But shutting your eyes doesn't work. Keeping them open wide enough is the challenge. Ignoring the reality that surrounds you is not good enough - you have to take control of it and make new realities. 

I used to think I cannot live without eating meat because I loved it so much and I refused to even contemplate how miserable life would be without beef. But now 2 weeks without any meat and I'm fine. 

Now I think was there a time when I declared I couldn't live without meat? Was there? Hmph. Yes, of course. 

Take your time...

No?

Well, did you know that within 24 hours of the President's signature, the price would go down by at least 50 cents?

Said signature would close the "Enron Loophole", which was inserted into an energy bill in December 2000. In secret. In the dead of night. Sans a word of debate.

It is what allowed Enron to screw Californians a few years ago, and now it's allowing Big Oil to screw the whole country.

It's estimated that without the current multi-level collusion amongst --

The Wall Street oil speculators who -- thanks to the Enron Loophole -- are in charge of (?!) the oil market (while blaming OPEC)
OPEC (the Organization of Petroleum Exporting Countries; withholding supply to drive up demand while blaming the speculators)
The "Big Five" oil companies (blaming Supply vs. Demand)
The White House (blaming Iran)
Republican leaders in Congress (blaming the lack of offshore drilling)

-- that right now you would be paying around $2.25 for a gallon of gas. $2.25. Right now. HALF of right now.

If that ain't enough to piss ya off, chew on this: Republican Senator David Vitter from Louisiana (I'm sad to say) is sponsoring a bill that would allow the federal government to override a state's right to decide whether it wants Exxon, Shell, BP, etc., drilling off its shores.

And when would this happen? Once the price of gas hits $5. That's what it says in the bill. Once the price of gas hits $5. Only then could they drill... See?

You would think this might be like kind of a HUUUGE fucking incentive for the oil companies to keep driving the price right on up. Ya think?

The same companies that are willingly, unabashedly, proudly raping us, while trotting out the same old tired, insulting "Supply vs Demand" bullshit in Congressional inquiries?

The same companies we actually subsidize with our tax dollars?

The most profitable companies on the planet? Like, ever?

Want to charge us more?!

And then, on top of that, holy shit as if that wasn't enough, they want us to give them the right to drill wherever they want?!

Yes. For our own good. You know, to help us out at the pump. The bill is called E.N.O.U.G.H.

Energy Needed Offshore Under Gas Hikes

Yes, that's the actual title of the bill. I am not making this shit up. George Orwell couldn't make this shit up.

So look for $5/gallon before Bush and a lot more skeevy Republicans in Congress are gone in January. Until then...

'08 is E.N.O.U.G.H.

Best. Speech. Ever.

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Say (what you need to say) John Mayer Cover

Strong Enough [original song]

Lyrics:

Welcome to the days of wariness
Where I'm feeling an echo inside my chest
I've a heart beating patiently along
Waiting for the other half of its song

And times have told the ways things come to light
Realizing a lack in your will to fight
Despite words crying inconsistencies
As you fall uneasily to your knees

No, it's not enough
Don't touch my hand and call it love
If you can't hold it tight tonight
If you're not strong enough

I'm not blind to what you're doing here
Make me feel like I'm special, but my dear
I have seen through a weakness in your eyes
You don't know it but you're telling me lies

You will soon wake to see
There is no heart in anything you say to me
Thought we'd found a harmony
A perfect match of melodies
But if you listen closely now, I've been singing all alone

No, it's not enough
Don't touch my hand and call it love
If you can't hold it tight tonight
If you're not strong enough

So I have decided to print photographs every week. I will post the photos I send to print each week. Some will be for my portfolio some I think for a little scrap book.

This is what I got done over the weekend.

but i shall arise fighting
fear has had its day
enough running, time now
for a better way
i will not go down
without a fight
there can be no loss
to live in the light
mock my body?
deride my soul?
youthful charm will age
but love will never grow old
and i shall see the glory
of my crown in you
when your golden scales fall
in the power of my truth

i will fight you
and i shall win
death will be a crown
for my struggles within
each anguished tear
from every taunt
a jewel of courage
shall be born
so be warned
i will not die
you will not kill me
though you have tried
your evil efforts will pave my path
with gold and precious stones
you shall drown in your own vomit
and i shall have the last long laugh