Father : if you dont wear, i'll cut and throw it away

I was like wtf lah! so, im like wearing that damn kebaya. Post more later.

PISSED OFF

I doubt if I even, know myself as a whole
To be clear if I am playing only part of the role
I would have tried a new way to reach the goal
So that life doesn't end soon and take on a toll 

How can you measure failures or smiles?
When u r not sure where end the final miles
It's easy to think about taking short cuts and short routes
But will it be possible later to check on your foot

Even if you are lonely, please don't feel so low
For when u are alone, u learn to gather seeds to sow
You won't realize the value of these seeds you possess
Unless u let them grow, you won't be able to evaluate & assess

Are you the only one with dark clouds above?
Hey wake up, chum, watch the whole universe is white dove
Even if they sing the same twiddle little tunes
Of disaster and self doubt which blinds the eyes like a storm crumbling a sand dune

Oh get up buddy; you have no time to wait
For you don't know anyways, what's in store in your fate?
Just go on and take many risks and some chance
Who might know, you may have a big reason to dance...

The rules that we made, have no way to be checked
The only sure means is to go aboard the deck
You may miss something good, without leaving a trail
But that's life's bargains for us, just continue your sail

As a result, no one really wants to hang around when they know a storm is coming. Instead, folks move somewhere indoors where it's safe and hope the cable doesn't get knocked out.

Anyone who saw the Milwaukee Brewers up close this weekend couldn't ignore the signs that a storm was brewing. Nursing a four-game lead of the Phillies in the wild-card race when the weekend started, the Brewers slinked out of town with their tails between their legs after first-place had disappeared into thin air.

Worse, the players on the Brewers moved around as if they knew they were fighting a losing battle. One could hear footfalls when moving across the carpet in the visitors' clubhouse at Citizens Bank Park because the room was so quiet. If we didn't know better, it felt as if the walls were inching closer and closer by the minute to properly reflect the tightness emanating from the ballplayers.

Not only were they tight, but also the Brewers were tense, angry, helpless, confused and frustrated. They avoided eye contact with one another and spoke in whispers. When they walked they looked straight ahead and moved with stealth so as to not draw any attention as they attempted a silent getaway.

Indeed, it was a bad weekend for the Brewers.

"This series was a complete and total disaster," outfielder Ryan Braun said. "It couldn't have gone any worse. [The Phillies] couldn't have played any better. We couldn't have played any worse. We can only go in one direction from here. It's not going to get worse."

Braun is correct on that last point. It won't get any worse for the Brewers, who have lost 11 of the 14 games they have played in September. However, with 12 games to go the Brewers still are tied with the Phillies for first place in the wild-card race. That's the reason general manager Doug Melvin and owner Mark Attanasio decided manager Ned Yost had to go. Clearly the way the Phillies and Charlie Manuel ran circles around Yost's Brewers led to his ouster.

Nevertheless, it was an unprecedented move by the Brewers. In moving former Phillie Dale Sveum from the third-base coaching box to the manager's seat, the Brewers have conceded that if they are going to make it to the playoffs for the first time since 1982, they needed some big changes immediately.

"(Yost) didn't have all the answers for what is going on the last two weeks and I'm not sure I have all the answers," Melvin said during a news conference at a hotel in Chicago. "I'm not sure this is the right one, either."

From this vantage point it seems like the right move. In fact, while walking through the corridor in the basement of Citizens Bank Park near the clubhouses, the sense of frustration from the Brewers as they walked silently to the bus that would take them to the airport and then to Chicago, was enough to knock a guy over. Desperation oozed from the confused faces so rich and thick that you could drizzle it over pancakes.

At the same time one could not mistake Manuel and the Phillies' role in all of this. After all, it was Manuel who chose to use pitchers Jamie Moyer and Brett Myers on short rest during the series while Yost searched for excuses NOT to use the best pitcher in baseball in CC Sabathia on the similar amount of rest when his team was desperate for a win. It was also Manuel who signaled for a suicide squeeze bunt with catcher Carlos Ruiz at the plate because he had a hunch.

Meanwhile, Yost could not urge his hitters to be a little more patient at the plate against Myers, who tossed a complete-game shutout on just 95 pitches on just three-days rest. After the game even Myers could not understand why the Brewers' hitters were so quick to swing the bats. Didn't they realize he did not have his best stuff?

But the capper was when Yost chose to allow soft-tossing lefty Brian Shouse to pitch to the right-handed hitting Pat Burrell even though erratic but hard-throwing righty Eric Gagne was warmed up and ready to come into the game. Never mind the point that Burrell went to the plate hitting just .138 (4-for-29) during September and a .172 average since the end of July, and had an 0-for-3 mark with a strikeout against Gagne - Yost thought Shouse had a better chance at coaxing a ground ball from Burrell withtwo on and one out in the eighth inning of a tied game.

"I've got a lot of confidence in Shousie to get a ground ball and a double play," Yost said. "I thought Shousie could get the job done."

What gave him that idea? According to the aptly named web site, "Fire Ned Yost," the Brewers almost had a better chance of turning a triple play with Shouse on the mound than a double play.

In 2008, Brian Shouse has pitched to 132 batters with 0 or 1 outs in the inning. Of those 132 plate appearances, 77 have been with a man on first base, and 5 have resulted in double plays. While that's not as low a percentage as the triple play he likes to avoid, it's still hard to understand where Ned's faith in Shousie's GDP ability come from. Well, unless it's just faith, of course.

Shouse did get Burrell to hit a ground ball, but it rolled into the outfield to send in the go-ahead run. To add insult to injury, Shane Victorino followed Burrell's single with a three-run homer.

So as we walked past the Brewers as they hustled to get out of town, I couldn't help but wonder out loud, "They aren't going to let the manager get on the charter are they?"

Apparently they did, but at that point it was just for a ride home.

This is what I saw when leaving work yesterday.  Lovely.

In other news of the scary, CEO's of failing businesses make more for getting fired than you'll make in a lifetime.

Also, someone "mistakenly" changed the date and reposted an article, from 2002, about United Airlines going bankrupt.  Result?  Stock nose dives, United freaks out. Who could have done such a thing?  Ohhh, I don't know....whoever was buying United stock on the way down might be someone worth looking at.  I like to think a staffer at the South Florida Sun Sentinel saved every penny for the last six years, waited for the right day, released the story, bought as much United as he could get his hands on while the price crashed, then promptly retired after the correction back to the original stock value.  If he  bought at a per share average of $5.50 or less, he'd double his money.

I am bound to be here, to stay the course of the day, having had just over two weeks away, I know I can not leave, bound once again by more pointless rules, of what is right and what is wrong. I need to sleep but I can not.

Once again it rains.

Abi is coming over for dinner this evening, in a moment of madness yesterday I agreed to cook, not quite sure how the original plan for a night out in the town on Saturday spun round to a night in this evening, with me cooking dinner.

I need to finish of the piles of washing that remain from my holiday, half of which I have not even worn but the stagnate state of laying in case takes the freshness out and I can not stand my clothes not being fresh.

I spoke with Julie yesterday, she seems a lot brighter and things with her and this "Boyfriend" are all good again, sadly will not last the next girl who comes along he will be off again, for an intelligent girl she is often quite blind, and I quite pessimistic.

At least it is Friday, even if the rain pours in once more.

Suwon city, from the top of the "mountain" behind Hwaseong Palace. The clouds this day were really pretty.

I have been watching the sky. More specifically -clouds. No, I have not turned into a soothsayer, not yet. And yes, I am aware of the fact that I was not the only one watching -but I was the only one with camera taking snaps of the beautiful tapestry drawn up above.

The snaps were taken with my trusted camera phone showcasing what high quality gadgets you can buy these days. But this post is not about gadgets, I promise. For now, enjoy these thumbnail assortment and let me know if you can spot that elusive cloud number nine.

This was the scene on Tuesday morning. Nothing else could have made me happier after a rather log spell of super-hot days. It was so unexpected, I almost felt as if I was daydreaming. Luckily got to my senses and picked up the camera.

The value of such random showers is very high as compared to the regular monsoons. Like that Ten rupee note one finds in a forgotten piece of clothing--only to spend it hastily. Soon it's back to the hot sunny days. Such small amounts, of money or rain, don't last long.

At a different level, it reminds me of how pathetically dependent we human beings are on mother nature for such small pieces of bliss and happiness. Not that I'd like to change it. If given a chance to control it, we humans are capable of royally screwing it up. We deserve these moments of cravings for the rain so that we can properly appreciate what we take for granted otherwise.

The autorickshaw driver that day summed it up nicely when he said, "Insaan ko koi bhi cheez zyada der tak pasand nahi aati" (Humans cannot take anything--sunshine or rain in this case--for too long).

Life is like a cloud - forever changing shape and direction......

Have you ever had a good look at clouds and cloud formations.

A while back we traveled back from Piet Retief in Mpumalanga, (South Africa) where we had done a Wedding Photo and DVD shoot.

As we traveled clouds started gathering more and more until the sky was covered with white fluffy cotton balls. White candy floss forever changing shape.

I love finding shapes and forms in the clouds. "Look - there is a bear lying sleeping!! and there is an old man smoking a pipe!! Is that a little lamb?"

Alas! within minutes - sometimes seconds - they disappear and change into fluffy cotton balls again. Sometimes they stay longer, changing shape, but still recognizable.

Beautiful!! So many different sights to see. Some clouds are very
dark - almost black. Others seem blue, and then the bright white ones that almost hurt your eyes when you look at them. "Look, there are some bright gold and orange clouds - isn't it a sight too beautiful to even describe!"

Then I think of the proverb - or is it just a saying - "Every dark cloud has a silver lining", and I realize that it is literally true. Look at all the large black clouds hovering above the mountains. They each have an incredibly bright edge... a silver lining!!

Our lives are just like these clouds. There are so many different shapes, sizes and colors and they are forever changing.

Show me the person who can HONESTLY say that their life is the same every day, and I will have a hard time believing you. Every day comes with its own joys, challenges and sorrows, and it does not only choose certain people. Everyone must go through the happy and the sad, the success and the failure...to be able to grow.

Everyone's life is like a cloud, I know mine is. Every dark cloud has a silver lining....sometimes you have to look carefully to find it, but it is there... the same way every dark period in your life will have a bright spot hidden somewhere...just look for it. Also remember that the sky is always darkest just before the dawn!!

I know that it is not always easy to stay positive, but with help from above I know that I will always be safe.

Here are some quotes I love and would like to share with you:

“Try and fail, but don't fail to try.” ................................................................ by: Stephen Kaggwa

“If you only do what you know you can do- you never do very much.” ............. by: Tom Krause

“Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow ................................................. by: Mary Anne Radmacher

“You are the embodiment of the information you choose to accept and act upon. To change your circumstances you need to change your thinking and subsequent actions.” ................................................................................................................ by: Adlin Sinclair

“Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.” ...................by: Unknown

And this is my best choice:

“Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.” ..........................................by: Mark Victor Hansen.

RHINO McCain appears to be leading, nationally.  Imagine that.  Who'd have guessed?  I mean the media has been pimping pumping him for ever.  So, listen up friends ... It ain't the Trilats that are running the world, it's the media.

<sigh>

I didn't attend the convention proper, just the dinner the night before.  When the voting started I was driving toward the West Side of Charleston to pick up some auto parts.  I kid you not, there was a black cloud over the city.  Now, it was the beginning of the rain storms that had been predicted.  But if I were the type of person who believed in omens and signs I would have been scared out of my pants!

I posted at Holywriter's site that it will be interesting to see how many Republicans bother to show up in May, for the primaries.  I can't help but think there will be fallout from this convention.  NOT that the convention idea is a bad one, but the way it was rolled out and the participation by the 'anointed few'.  Did the desire to be in the media spotlight cause the party 'leaders' to prostitute their-selves.

I called my local "party headquarters" and emailed Mr. Bob Fish for some details back in December.  Never got a return call nor email.  Now that is sad.  But then, I'm not a well-known mover and shaker around here.

I may start my own little campaign to get disenfrachised voters to switch from a major party to Independents, just through the primaries. That may get some attention.

What do you think?

UPDATE:  I've been reading Sprouse's blog Change WV and am noticing I'm not the only perons with problems regarding the Republican "Convention".  And, in reading the Holy Writer's comments, I'm wondering if the whole process was legal.  Can a private corporation hold the Republican Convention and distribute the delegates?

Maybe someone out there can answer that for me.

When you are coming, originally uploaded by photographer padawan.

i'm afraid

i amm afraaid

i'm afraid i'm afraidi'm afraidi'm afraidi'm afraidi'm afraid

Hubble discovers dark cloud in Uranus atmosphere

deed me toch even grinniken.
Niet alleen dat, ze bleven gaan met

the location is becoming fully exposed to sunlight for the first time in years

*hihihi*
In dit artikel zijn er trouwens foto's te zien van die donkere wolk op Uranus.

Although there have been unconfirmed sightings of darker colored spots on Uranus, ...

Maar kom, genoeg gelachen. Geniet van het weekend!